what the fuck was going on here yesterday?
k, bye
p.s. i miss my girlfriend. she's in hawaii.
k, bye
p.s. i miss my girlfriend. she's in hawaii.
new attitude.
new picture.
new girl.
new job.
k, bye.
new picture.
new girl.
new job.
k, bye.
casper:
yaaay for new attitudes.
and its not even new years, and youve already started over, good job.
yes, tit week is always on my calender.
yours is pierced penis week.
and its not even new years, and youve already started over, good job.
yes, tit week is always on my calender.
yours is pierced penis week.
wow this sucks!
after two weeks of feeling really okay i've concluded that i'm not okay with feeling okay, and once again i feel like driving off of a cliff.
k, bye.
after two weeks of feeling really okay i've concluded that i'm not okay with feeling okay, and once again i feel like driving off of a cliff.
k, bye.
xevilxashleyx:
What! Not fifteen minutes before you typed this, you left me a comment that said things couldn't be better!
What happened in so short a time to make you go spiraling down again?
What happened in so short a time to make you go spiraling down again?
happy happy joy joy happy happy joy joy
one hundred thirty miles per hour
hanging out with a really cute girl with whom i shared the pleasure of driving aimlessly for three hours, then we walked her dog and talked for forty five minutes, huged goodnight and confirmed it would be nice to do it again sometime.
no meaningless sex, or kissing because we couldn't...
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one hundred thirty miles per hour
hanging out with a really cute girl with whom i shared the pleasure of driving aimlessly for three hours, then we walked her dog and talked for forty five minutes, huged goodnight and confirmed it would be nice to do it again sometime.
no meaningless sex, or kissing because we couldn't...
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casper:
its about time you post your peep.
very well done.
very well done.
xevilxashleyx:
Hey you, way over there! How're things?
okay, life is good again!
my internet has been restored!
i didn't pick alex up from the airport(no i didn't blow her out, i left a message). now i just need to get through the weekend without acting on the lie that i want to see her. i need to listen to those people in my life that care enough to tell me the truth....
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my internet has been restored!
i didn't pick alex up from the airport(no i didn't blow her out, i left a message). now i just need to get through the weekend without acting on the lie that i want to see her. i need to listen to those people in my life that care enough to tell me the truth....
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pixidust:
i think you can see the stars there i hope so!!!! 
mercie:
yes, yay indeed for disease books and camera phones! 
just when i was coming to terms with the fact that 'we' were over, through, quit, i get a call. it was a week before her birthday and i thought it would be a good idea to send a card, it wasn't. she called a few days after i sent it, quicker than i thought she would recieve it, i thought it was my friend...
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kallisti:
You don't need to be with anyone to be happy.
You don't seem happy as yourself.
It's unhealthy.
Perpetually unhappy.
Love yourself first and everything falls into place.
This is the second time I've said that this week.
It makes me sad to see so many people in this state of being, state of mind.
Love is letting go.
True love is very empty of complicated emotions.
If you care to discuss the matter... drop me a line.
You don't seem happy as yourself.
It's unhealthy.
Perpetually unhappy.
Love yourself first and everything falls into place.
This is the second time I've said that this week.
It makes me sad to see so many people in this state of being, state of mind.
Love is letting go.
True love is very empty of complicated emotions.
If you care to discuss the matter... drop me a line.
xevilxashleyx:
Unfortunately, it's true - real, honest, true love is devoid of complications and obligations. It's letting go and knowing that everything will be ok.
Feeling like you have to be with someone to be happy isn't healthy. You really do need to love yourself, and I mean really, honestly love yourself before you can allow anyone else to really love you...and before you can really love anyone else.
Let her go. For real this time. Call her back and tell her that you can't do it, send her an email, something. Tell her that something came up or whatever. ANYTHING. But...let her go and forget about her; she's obviously not good for you, lovey and you need to stop being so self depreciative. It's detrimental to your health!
Oh, I wish I could help you, but this is one of those things that no one else can really help you with! You have to love yourself, and I don't think anyone else can really help you do that...
Best of luck, and if you need to talk...you know how to get me.
Feeling like you have to be with someone to be happy isn't healthy. You really do need to love yourself, and I mean really, honestly love yourself before you can allow anyone else to really love you...and before you can really love anyone else.
Let her go. For real this time. Call her back and tell her that you can't do it, send her an email, something. Tell her that something came up or whatever. ANYTHING. But...let her go and forget about her; she's obviously not good for you, lovey and you need to stop being so self depreciative. It's detrimental to your health!
Oh, I wish I could help you, but this is one of those things that no one else can really help you with!
You have to love yourself, and I don't think anyone else can really help you do that...
Best of luck, and if you need to talk...you know how to get me.
finally!
no, my internet access has not yet been restored. my friend colin let me use his machine so i've posted a few pictures. only a few because i have to photoshop all of them and he has to go to work. i already went to work, got off at ten, went to the beach but it was overcast and the water felt freezing, so...
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no, my internet access has not yet been restored. my friend colin let me use his machine so i've posted a few pictures. only a few because i have to photoshop all of them and he has to go to work. i already went to work, got off at ten, went to the beach but it was overcast and the water felt freezing, so...
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germany:
i'm so bust with the AMF and Burningman and trying to get money to move. another festival would almost kill me from exhaustion.. i will make it to the One festival next year hopefully.... tell me all about it when you get back
xevilxashleyx:
She called? I thought you were past that?! 
Keep your head up, soldier.
And...nice pics!
Keep your head up, soldier.
And...nice pics!
okay, the suspension went really well. my only complaint is that it felt a little too commercial for such a ritual. i wasn't doing it to entertain. i felt much heavier than i thought i would, but for a first experience i am satisfied. i can't wait to do it again i just hope i can find someone with whom i can share it. i...
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sophie_sass:
What kind of man doesn't like blow jobs?!
I passed out when I got my first nipple pierced. It wasn't the pain, it was the blood.
At least we knew it was happening and I got a chance to lay down before I went out. Very awkward experience.
I ran over a lizard once. I felt soooo bad. It committed suicide though. It ran out into the road as I was approaching, I slowed down, it turned back when it saw me coming, then when I started to speed up to go past it it darted back into the road and under my tire before I had the chance to slow down.
Oh, and I'm from Pasadena too.
I passed out when I got my first nipple pierced. It wasn't the pain, it was the blood.
At least we knew it was happening and I got a chance to lay down before I went out. Very awkward experience.
I ran over a lizard once. I felt soooo bad. It committed suicide though. It ran out into the road as I was approaching, I slowed down, it turned back when it saw me coming, then when I started to speed up to go past it it darted back into the road and under my tire before I had the chance to slow down.
Oh, and I'm from Pasadena too.
xevilxashleyx:
I've never passed out, unless heat exhaustion counts...?
But...yay! I'm glad it went well!
The first thing I ever hit was a pigeon. I was getting on the highway and it was in the shadow of an overpass and...BAM! I saw it after it was already too late. It was still alive, though, so I...backed over it to put it out of it's misery.
I cried for-ev-er while parked...on the on ramp. Ha. Like you, the only thing I enjoy hurting is myself, so it was a huge ordeal for me...
But...yay! I'm glad it went well!
The first thing I ever hit was a pigeon. I was getting on the highway and it was in the shadow of an overpass and...BAM! I saw it after it was already too late. It was still alive, though, so I...backed over it to put it out of it's misery.
I cried for-ev-er while parked...on the on ramp. Ha. Like you, the only thing I enjoy hurting is myself, so it was a huge ordeal for me...
i still don't have access at my apt. for that i am beyond frustration. fuck sbcyahoo and the horse they rode in on! new computer, checked all the connections and still, nothing.
oh fucking well. if that's all i can come up with to complain about, then i'm doing pretty fucking well.
i can't express in words how excited i am to hang. my first...
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oh fucking well. if that's all i can come up with to complain about, then i'm doing pretty fucking well.
i can't express in words how excited i am to hang. my first...
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xevilxashleyx:
Glad to see you're doing at least a little better!
Glad to see you're doing at least a little better! 
wow, i'm at my sister's house in oakland, and it's really fucking cool. her husband is way okay. when i met him i didn't like him at all. but i see now that is because i hated myself. they are having a baby and she it huge! due next month. i'm actually really excited, uncle garrett. fucking wierd! i'm am so greatfull that i pulled...
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casper:
which ones of us do you love?
just kidding, and where the hell are my penis pictures?
love, casper
just kidding, and where the hell are my penis pictures?
love, casper
xevilxashleyx:
I'm super-glad that you're happy! Or...at least happier!
Yay for pulling your head out of your ass!
Yay for pulling your head out of your ass!
thanks guys.
my computer is broken and i have to go get the pizza now.
my sister's cat got ripped in half last night. i loved her. it seems as though there is pain everywhere!
but i like pain so i guess i'm happy.
don't forget well hung summer suspension session- 1039 east green street, pasadena, ca. saturday july, seventeenth. (check the events calendar to...
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my computer is broken and i have to go get the pizza now.
my sister's cat got ripped in half last night. i loved her. it seems as though there is pain everywhere!
but i like pain so i guess i'm happy.
don't forget well hung summer suspension session- 1039 east green street, pasadena, ca. saturday july, seventeenth. (check the events calendar to...
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lucy:
*hugs*
There's good pain and bad pain. Seeing something you love destroyed is the bad kind.
I've been there.
*hugs*
There's good pain and bad pain. Seeing something you love destroyed is the bad kind.
I've been there.
*hugs*
i really thought it would be easier to move on after all the heartache, but i fucking miss her. i've givin up on the idea that we can be happy, and i know now i can not replace her with another. i actually have to heal. fuck, that will take time.
oh well, life goes on. my sister is having a baby. my mom's eating...
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lithium_picnic:
thank you
gerta:
thanks guys.
my computer is broken and i have to go get the pizza now.
my sister's cat got ripped in half last night. i loved her and it seems as though there is pain everywhere!
but i like pain so i guess i'm happy.
my computer is broken and i have to go get the pizza now.
my sister's cat got ripped in half last night. i loved her and it seems as though there is pain everywhere!
but i like pain so i guess i'm happy.
what the fuck was going on here right now????
confused.