Hello all. This week so far has been interesting. Just like most of the time when I come back to my home town, I learn something. Something about myself and something about others. This time it has been mostly about myself. Although my life has been going pretty good for the most part, I think there is a lot of room for improvement. There are a few things that I need to decide on.
First of all my job. Am I really happy and is all the work/time I put in really worth the money? Dealing with the people I deal with isn't easy and not too many people wouldn't last at it. Should I get a government job and be a drone? Not really sure that I can do that. Plus I don't have a full college education. I could walk into any job in my industry around where I live. Haven't needed a resume or needed to fill out a job application since I was sixteen.
Second would be my living situation. I tend to do a lot for my roommate who also owns the house we live in. The rent is really cheap, but I really don't feel free living there. I can't just hang a picture up without some snide remark. So I don't and that pisses me off. I get pretty much one room for my stuff and that is it. I am thirty years old now and need to decide if I am going to keep on living there. If I do then there needs to be a addition to "my space". I would like to have my own place, but I don't want to be tied down for several years. These decisions would be much easier if I were married because there would be a more concrete plan. Not saying that single people can't have a plan, but for me it is just harder. When I was eighteen I swore that by twenty-five I would have found my soul mate and had a few kids. Hasn't happened that I know of and it is kind of a disappointment. There was a lot about life that I have learned and am very happy that is what came out of my twenties. Whatever.
There is more, but screw it. Just need to get a van and go on the road playing my songs. Like that is going to happen anytime.
Please make sure and go by vinyle's and wish her a happy birthday. Please wish her a happy birthday because I feel like a shit. My internet card in my laptop has been down until right now. She is great.
One final note. Just wish that someone out there would know how good they are. How much they shouldn't change to appease people and don't worry what they think.
That's me....I am outta here.
First of all my job. Am I really happy and is all the work/time I put in really worth the money? Dealing with the people I deal with isn't easy and not too many people wouldn't last at it. Should I get a government job and be a drone? Not really sure that I can do that. Plus I don't have a full college education. I could walk into any job in my industry around where I live. Haven't needed a resume or needed to fill out a job application since I was sixteen.
Second would be my living situation. I tend to do a lot for my roommate who also owns the house we live in. The rent is really cheap, but I really don't feel free living there. I can't just hang a picture up without some snide remark. So I don't and that pisses me off. I get pretty much one room for my stuff and that is it. I am thirty years old now and need to decide if I am going to keep on living there. If I do then there needs to be a addition to "my space". I would like to have my own place, but I don't want to be tied down for several years. These decisions would be much easier if I were married because there would be a more concrete plan. Not saying that single people can't have a plan, but for me it is just harder. When I was eighteen I swore that by twenty-five I would have found my soul mate and had a few kids. Hasn't happened that I know of and it is kind of a disappointment. There was a lot about life that I have learned and am very happy that is what came out of my twenties. Whatever.
There is more, but screw it. Just need to get a van and go on the road playing my songs. Like that is going to happen anytime.
Please make sure and go by vinyle's and wish her a happy birthday. Please wish her a happy birthday because I feel like a shit. My internet card in my laptop has been down until right now. She is great.
One final note. Just wish that someone out there would know how good they are. How much they shouldn't change to appease people and don't worry what they think.
That's me....I am outta here.
Make yourself happy and the rest will follow. If only it were that easy, right?
It's surreal going home. That's what I'm thinking about the trip to erie anyway. I may even see biological dad. Thrills all around.
and its been good to see ya too.
I liked Tom's comment on canoeing....
"we were in still water and all of a sudden I hear from behind me 'We're going down.' and I couldn't TELL we were sinking until 5 seconds later when we were neck deep in water."
must have been a good time!!