geoff_number_12

I fucking hate it when you are finished with a journal entry and you accidently click a pop-up-ad and when you come back hole journal entry is gone. So without further ado.

My life is run by fear. I figured this out this morning. I know how bad this most sound but it is worse. If I am scared or nerves, I will find something that will hide my fear. I.e., smoke some drugs, eat some food, or smoke some more drugs. This really sucks. I hate being afraid, it makes me dumb and fat. As you can see, this "fear" is hurting my self esteem. Without self esteem you dont have a fighting chance in this world. Now, I am afraid that I dont have a chance in hell to become something great in this world. (Bring on the pot)

I will overcome fear one day but today I will hide in the weeds.

P.S. wtf