genshi

Strange, strange life...

So I was in a panic because I thought I was going to lose everything, but thanks to elisabeth's advice to just pick myself up, dust myself off and have faith in myself, things have turned around a bit.

I've been working for myself the last year or so which I liked, but is also dangerous which is why I wound up in this situation. So I had to go back to getting a day job which I was dreading, but I just got hired today to a very cool day job I've been wanting for quite awhile at a major audio hardware and software manufacturer and distributor. So starting Monday I will be going to work to play with all sorts of digital music making software and stuff. Cool!

And as for my rent, I will have to pawn a few things in my studio which I REALLY hate doing because I've done it before and have lost stuff... but I guess things like this happen and it could be worse... and I do have a hell of a lot of stuff that I'm not using that could just as easily be sitting in pawn so I can get the money for my rent. So that's covered as of tomorrow.

So things are looking up. I should have more faith in myself and not panic as much, but it's hard when I've been burned by people before and I no longer trust people so I sit here alone to listen to my inner voices telling me how bad it all is... but I'm going to change all that as well. I know there ARE good people out there, I just gotta get out more and find them... and start trusting again!

Thank you again elisabeth and also _er_ for the kind words.