Why so sad you all ask? Did you read the previous journal entries? (I guess most people do not)
I was cheated and screwed by the person I was working for two weeks ago. I now have two days left to pay my rent or I will be evicted. I have no money what so ever (because I tried to help someone else out a few weeks ago and they skipped out on me) and I have no where to go.
If you guys knew me... I mean actually knew what I was about and what I have accomplished and what I want to do in life, then you would see that I don't deserve any of this.
I'm a good person, always treated others very good and put other people before me. I've never had a drop of alchohol or drugs or cigerettes in my entire life (which obviously at this point doesn't matter) and always had goals and worked really hard towards those goals. And now because life is a big fuck in the ass, I'm going to be on the streets of Los Angeles with the crack addicts and mentaly ill!
I'm not some dumb college kid whining about nowhere to go and no money when in actuality they could go back home to their parents or they have friends all around them that would help (I saw a post here on SG from some girl whining because she was approved for a student loan but didn't actually want to use the money for school. She didn't even want to go to school, she just wanted to go shopping and go on a vacation with the money, so of course they told her she can't do that and she's all up in arms saying "the system sucks, my life sucks, blah, blah, blah" No, SHE sucks! She's trying to cheat the system because she's a spoiled lazy fuck of a person! And what's more amazing was how many people supported her just because she was cute!)
I lost both of my parents a couple of years ago and all of my so-called friends have abandoned me because they were just using me for my talents and for my money... and now that the money is gone, so is everyone else!
My whole life I tried to do the right thing, I've tried to be nice and compassionate towards other people and I've worked very hard to build up what I have... and now it's all over. I'm losing everything!
It just isn't right. And it proves that life means absolutlely nothing becasue it's all just random chaotic events that, no matter how hard you try to control, can go compleely wrong... or, if there is a God, he is the biggest fucking asshole in exsistence and he is just fucking with us all... and I can't wait to die so I can kick his fucking ass!
This is probably my last entry. Hope you all have a much better life than I.
I was cheated and screwed by the person I was working for two weeks ago. I now have two days left to pay my rent or I will be evicted. I have no money what so ever (because I tried to help someone else out a few weeks ago and they skipped out on me) and I have no where to go.
If you guys knew me... I mean actually knew what I was about and what I have accomplished and what I want to do in life, then you would see that I don't deserve any of this.
I'm a good person, always treated others very good and put other people before me. I've never had a drop of alchohol or drugs or cigerettes in my entire life (which obviously at this point doesn't matter) and always had goals and worked really hard towards those goals. And now because life is a big fuck in the ass, I'm going to be on the streets of Los Angeles with the crack addicts and mentaly ill!
I'm not some dumb college kid whining about nowhere to go and no money when in actuality they could go back home to their parents or they have friends all around them that would help (I saw a post here on SG from some girl whining because she was approved for a student loan but didn't actually want to use the money for school. She didn't even want to go to school, she just wanted to go shopping and go on a vacation with the money, so of course they told her she can't do that and she's all up in arms saying "the system sucks, my life sucks, blah, blah, blah" No, SHE sucks! She's trying to cheat the system because she's a spoiled lazy fuck of a person! And what's more amazing was how many people supported her just because she was cute!)
I lost both of my parents a couple of years ago and all of my so-called friends have abandoned me because they were just using me for my talents and for my money... and now that the money is gone, so is everyone else!
My whole life I tried to do the right thing, I've tried to be nice and compassionate towards other people and I've worked very hard to build up what I have... and now it's all over. I'm losing everything!
It just isn't right. And it proves that life means absolutlely nothing becasue it's all just random chaotic events that, no matter how hard you try to control, can go compleely wrong... or, if there is a God, he is the biggest fucking asshole in exsistence and he is just fucking with us all... and I can't wait to die so I can kick his fucking ass!
This is probably my last entry. Hope you all have a much better life than I.
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well, maybe.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and have faith in yourself. You've made it this far, and it can always be better, but you know what? It could be a hell of a lot worse.
That which doesn't kill us makes us stranger.