Going on 36 straight hours alone in my room.
Clearly I'm a loser if I can't even get invited to a party the weekend before halloween. Oh, I know of a few being hosted by some of my best friends. But, apparently I have no place there.
Yesterday I had the third installment of my fillings done. I dunno how many I got done this time, 4 or 5. Last time was 6. Man, my teeth suck.
Today I woke up with the worst stomache pain since my acetaminophen overdose. Even with the od it didn't hurt as much to puke. Granted it hurt to do everything else.
I had to call in to work, I wouldn't want to puke on peoples food. Well, I wouldn't care, I'm just sure everyone else would. So now I have less money than usual.
Cleveland on thursday. yippeeee I get to spend 2 days with people who constantly look down on me. Again.
So the only thing that kept me from killing myself over the summer was that I thought school would be great. Now I hate my course and the people in it and my music is going nowhere and I'm poor and don't have much of a social life. So now I don't know what to do to keep myself wanting to not crack my skull open.
Yeah, it's one of those bitter posts I make every couple weeks. Yeah well. I guess I just want some attention and I'm a needy little bitch, blah blah, yeah I'm aware of that. I don't even know what to say next, I'm just killing time at this point until I have to work in 16 hours.
Clearly I'm a loser if I can't even get invited to a party the weekend before halloween. Oh, I know of a few being hosted by some of my best friends. But, apparently I have no place there.
Yesterday I had the third installment of my fillings done. I dunno how many I got done this time, 4 or 5. Last time was 6. Man, my teeth suck.
Today I woke up with the worst stomache pain since my acetaminophen overdose. Even with the od it didn't hurt as much to puke. Granted it hurt to do everything else.
I had to call in to work, I wouldn't want to puke on peoples food. Well, I wouldn't care, I'm just sure everyone else would. So now I have less money than usual.
Cleveland on thursday. yippeeee I get to spend 2 days with people who constantly look down on me. Again.
So the only thing that kept me from killing myself over the summer was that I thought school would be great. Now I hate my course and the people in it and my music is going nowhere and I'm poor and don't have much of a social life. So now I don't know what to do to keep myself wanting to not crack my skull open.
Yeah, it's one of those bitter posts I make every couple weeks. Yeah well. I guess I just want some attention and I'm a needy little bitch, blah blah, yeah I'm aware of that. I don't even know what to say next, I'm just killing time at this point until I have to work in 16 hours.