genetic_freeman

Another one of Jen's LJ posts...

"so i have a friend who all i wanted was to be friends with this guy. i was happy when we were first friends casue i thougth hed never go for me. and i thought that was sweet. but no. i cant jsut be friends with a guy. and to make things better, i like his friend, and have for a VERY LONG time now. but becasue of buddy over here. this girl cant be happy. find a guy who i really freakin like, and im forbidden to ever like him. i was thinking this the otehr day. things between my friend and i could never work becasue: once i think hes givin up on being depressing, he goes and proves me wrong by getting all depressed on me. i cant handle it. its too much bullshit for me to deal with. i like to drink. hes straight edge. i cant say one thing with out him taking it the wrong way and getting pissy about it. he wants me outta his life anyways. so theres my whole point. soo whatever I LIKE KEVIN. and i cant change that. i didnt FORCE myself to like him, nor can i FORCE myself to like anyone else. so looks like this girl will jsut have to wait it out."

You don't understand how crushed I am right now... It's like I just can't feel now, I can't be sad, I can't be mad I'm just blank...