I dunno why I feel so empty today. Last night I had a text message convo with Karolina for a couple hours and it was great and even work was pretty good. But I just woke up so upset at everything, I also woke up with really bad scratches across my chest, dunno what that's about, really stung in the shower though. Maybe it's just the fact that I know I'm gonna get my ass kicked at work today since I have to work alone for like 9 hours on fucking Easter while my family makes a big turkey dinner and enjoys the weekend. I don't even think I get any extra pay for working on a holiday, how balls is that?
Work also didn't give me tuesday off when I asked for it. Whatever, I'll just work, nobody offered to go to the munch with me anyway so I might as well just not go. I better be making some good money next paycheck.
I just feel so shitty right now like I just want to curl up and fucking sleep through the rest of the day and forget it ever happened. There's just usually a reason that I feel this way but it came out of nowhere today.
I've just been stressed and slowly letting go of everything that once made me happy, not that I want to, but because I essentially have to. I don't really expect Karolina to really think much of me and I kinda know that so it's pissing me off a little.
Everyone I know went to Steve's for a party yesterday and again I wasn't invited while I had to watch everyone else around me talk about it. I know I couldn't have come and I wouldn't have wanted to come anyway but being asked every so often would be nice.
Anyway, I've said too much depressing shit for a while. I assure you people that I'm not always like this, I just like getting shit out onto blogs and such, it's good release.
Work also didn't give me tuesday off when I asked for it. Whatever, I'll just work, nobody offered to go to the munch with me anyway so I might as well just not go. I better be making some good money next paycheck.
I just feel so shitty right now like I just want to curl up and fucking sleep through the rest of the day and forget it ever happened. There's just usually a reason that I feel this way but it came out of nowhere today.
I've just been stressed and slowly letting go of everything that once made me happy, not that I want to, but because I essentially have to. I don't really expect Karolina to really think much of me and I kinda know that so it's pissing me off a little.
Everyone I know went to Steve's for a party yesterday and again I wasn't invited while I had to watch everyone else around me talk about it. I know I couldn't have come and I wouldn't have wanted to come anyway but being asked every so often would be nice.
Anyway, I've said too much depressing shit for a while. I assure you people that I'm not always like this, I just like getting shit out onto blogs and such, it's good release.