Like 2 years of being hopelessly in love with her and finally she full out tells me "I don't feel that way, sorry." Even though I knew it, it still hurts a lot to hear it. Even though I always knew I still always had that voice in the back of my head saying "don't worry man, you can win her over." But now I don't even have that. Really kinda empties me out. Now I gotta go to the Taste of Chaos show with her, I don't know what that's going to be like. I won't know what to say to her, I don't have any interesting stories and now I've just lost all my will to try to impress her, I'll be even less interesting to be around because now I'm not even going to try to impress her or anything (as if I was doing that successfully in the first place.)

Anyway, I managed to finish 2 essays this weekend, now I just got a presentation to worry about. It'll most likely be half-assed though.

Eradication show this Friday at The Dungeon. Check it out if you're around. I'll be half dead when I'm on stage because I'm doing the 30 hour famine and I'll have been awake since 6am at that point, so I'll be about halfway through when we play, I'll be pretty weak I think. But I promised Julia that I'd do it with her, it's just unfortunate that it falls on a show day. If I can't make it I'll have to eat but I'll try.

I'm still looking for someone to go with me to the pansexual munch on the 18th. I booked the day off work and everything.