genetic_freeman

Another one of Jen's LJ posts...

"so i have a friend who all i wanted was to be friends with this guy. i was happy when we were first friends casue i thougth hed never go for me. and i thought that was sweet. but no. i cant jsut be friends with a guy. and to make things better, i like his friend, and have...
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Wasted Days
By: The Slackers

what have i done wrong that i should be sorry?
you broke my heart you left in no hurry
what i'm sorry for is all those wasted days
and all those wasted ways that i loved you.

what didn't i do that made you want to leave me?
my life was so full now it seems so empty
what i...
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Have you ever searched your name on google? I found so much shit on me. Unfortunately I found a lot of old poetry and my old xanga account with the final post on which I was all fucked up from my ex leaving me. Those were rough days. But at least in comparison I can say that I've controlled my depression a lot more since...
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I dunno why I feel so empty today. Last night I had a text message convo with Karolina for a couple hours and it was great and even work was pretty good. But I just woke up so upset at everything, I also woke up with really bad scratches across my chest, dunno what that's about, really stung in the shower though. Maybe it's just...
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So I went to Taste of Chaos yesterday. As you know those tickets were my Christmas present for Jen. She picked me up at like 4 when the show was starting. Turned out her friend Ally was coming too, which I was not aware of until I got in the car. I don't particularly like her, but there's not many friends of friends that I...
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When I wake up with her on my mind I know it's going to be a miserable day.

"You crave your lover when the two of you are apart."
Lucky Numbers 7, 27, 38, 44, 9, 20

You guys missed a fucking wicked show last night. We rocked the shit outta the Dungeon. I did 21 hours of the 30 hour famine so my arms were all weak so I couldn't play on so I just dropped my bass and dove into the audience and knocked some kids around, it was hot.

Other memorable happenings lately:

Kevin made 2 like 15 year...
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Jealousy, it's creeping up on me again. It's one of the many things in my rotation of uneasy feelings that keep me awake at night.

I try not to think of my love life, it just leads to lots of troubles. But it keeps coming back to piss me off.

I'm doing a presentation on suicide girls for one of my sociology classes. I have...
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Like 2 years of being hopelessly in love with her and finally she full out tells me "I don't feel that way, sorry." Even though I knew it, it still hurts a lot to hear it. Even though I always knew I still always had that voice in the back of my head saying "don't worry man, you can win her over." But now I...
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For some reason I never noticed that there's a mic stand sticking into my display picture.

Anyway.

I got called into Montana's yesterday to cover a closing shift with no help. It was my first time closing and it was hell. First I forgot to turn off the washer when I emptied it, this apprently causes it to basically explode, luckily we stopped it before...
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