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I cannot explain how stressed out i am.

i basically said goodbye to a relationship with sunni so that i dont have to long for her WHILE at basic at the same time. that would crush me....

but if she...still thinks as much of me after im out... and we actually get to meet on the 6th.... then id be more than happy to make it so we were closer for real location wise... and id be more than happy to make sure i was just with her

argh other than that though, i now have to get over all this.... i have to get over the pain of my job, over losing sunni (in a way) and plain ol hurtin inside.

i have to go into basic clean and motivated and im a longshot from that.

but let me say one last time before i say goodbye to this... before i try to go on from it until basic is over....

let me just say to you sunni that

even though things get confusing... when you come back from whatever scared me, we talk the long nice talks i begged for so much and ... thats when i just... feel so much for you that reminds me why i think so much of you.

i dont know if well end up together but... id like to hope i would?