Well i tried to meditate at work today, i got maybe 10 min out of it until someone started goin "hello? heloooooooo?" (why do customers only come when im actually trying to do something constructive to make the day go by)
I tried to meditate after he left but i kept hearing footsteps near where the customers normally are... so i couldent focus.
I was trying to meditate cause i yet again got strickended with severe lonliness ... it usually happens when i talk to a girl or wonder if some girl didnt call me cause they dont really wana talk to me that much...
Luckily im not as upset abotu THAT as i usually get... but NOW i just get upset because of how i have to stop caring about THAT just so i can get used to being alone and not feel so hurt by it.
Atleast i moved a step up... i mean the fact that some girl isnt gonna fall in love with me when i think she is sweet depresses me too... but i learn to numb that.... i learn to numb it...
But i dunno if im really taking care of the problem or just blotting it out.
I tried to meditate after he left but i kept hearing footsteps near where the customers normally are... so i couldent focus.
I was trying to meditate cause i yet again got strickended with severe lonliness ... it usually happens when i talk to a girl or wonder if some girl didnt call me cause they dont really wana talk to me that much...
Luckily im not as upset abotu THAT as i usually get... but NOW i just get upset because of how i have to stop caring about THAT just so i can get used to being alone and not feel so hurt by it.
Atleast i moved a step up... i mean the fact that some girl isnt gonna fall in love with me when i think she is sweet depresses me too... but i learn to numb that.... i learn to numb it...
But i dunno if im really taking care of the problem or just blotting it out.
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yeah i know what you mean about feeling bad sin... but thats why i figured id tell people first, so THAT way if they dont reply then they dont care anyway
trust me...I think I'm numb to every human emotion after 5 years of working in retail and having some horrible luck with relationships...
But who cares about relationships...take up a hobby. I started working out so I could help myself quit smoking, and it actually got my mind off of wanting any kind of relationships right now. I'm perfectly straight, but I'm not about to let go of single life.