Hmmm i think im feeling down at the moment.... i see soooo many intensly beautiful women here, (yes yes including all you on my friends list) and its hard to resist flirting in order to get their attention....
I do of course resist flirting... as you who have talked to me would know.... but i really dont wana... i want your attention and your desire so badly..
This is why i meditate really.. to try and cope with that... i have to accept that im not the guy that you are all like "goddamn i gotta talk to him!" and infact like most men i will have to try damn hard if i ever wanted to meet you or somethin.
But even meditation is really hard... cause you start feelin an itch, or your chest starts hurtin or you feel saliva in your mouth that you wana swallow... so many things to break your concentration... it does help though.
I dunno what to think.... i guess i will just keep meditating and writing like i do, keep searching for some real inner peace so i can go about getting happiness in my life.
Its definatly tough... this place is a very tempting place... full of things that i feel hopeless towards ever getting. Things that if i could actually do them (sex) id prolly decline anyway and kick myself in the ass later for being so anti-promiscuous.
I just want the love of my life to show up sometime soon and reward me with her love for all the hard work im doin by tryin not to care so much anymore .... blah..... blarf.....
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I do of course resist flirting... as you who have talked to me would know.... but i really dont wana... i want your attention and your desire so badly..
This is why i meditate really.. to try and cope with that... i have to accept that im not the guy that you are all like "goddamn i gotta talk to him!" and infact like most men i will have to try damn hard if i ever wanted to meet you or somethin.
But even meditation is really hard... cause you start feelin an itch, or your chest starts hurtin or you feel saliva in your mouth that you wana swallow... so many things to break your concentration... it does help though.
I dunno what to think.... i guess i will just keep meditating and writing like i do, keep searching for some real inner peace so i can go about getting happiness in my life.
Its definatly tough... this place is a very tempting place... full of things that i feel hopeless towards ever getting. Things that if i could actually do them (sex) id prolly decline anyway and kick myself in the ass later for being so anti-promiscuous.
I just want the love of my life to show up sometime soon and reward me with her love for all the hard work im doin by tryin not to care so much anymore .... blah..... blarf.....
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genericname:
ahhhh very good words.... and from women no less so im sure its gotta have some connection to what they want *ponders* thank you for your input 
cuddle_junkie:
hmm I looked at your profile and your entry..you seem to be a very deep character. Nice thing to see I may not be the girl you are looking for (seeing as how I have someone already) but you seem to have a lot of the same intrests as me. Maybe we could talk and learn more about each other. I'd like to be your friend if that is alright with you.
I may not be the girl you are looking for (seeing as how I have someone already) but you seem to have a lot of the same intrests as me. Maybe we could talk and learn more about each other. I'd like to be your friend if that is alright with you.