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My Grandpa's in the hospital. He's been in there for a little over a week I guess. We just heard four days ago. He didn't want anyone to worry about him. Two days ago, he was taken out of the ICU and we were told he was doing better. Less than 12 hours later we got a phone call saying my Mom needed to get up there, that he had gone into heart and kidney failure. We didn't know how bad it was until today (we drove up there that night though). Apparently he was so bad that they had read him his last rights. Yesterday and today he seems to be doing a little better. He's frustrated because he's having a hard time understanding people, and no one can understand him. I know there's really no recovering from heart and kidney failure, and I won't get to see him while he's in the hospital. I don't know whose rule that is, whether it's his, or my aunt's, but I honestly wouldn't want that to be my last memory of him. Even though, I feel very guilty for not going in to see him. I don't know. It mostly just sucks because I wanted to develop a better relationship with my Grandparents, and now, now I don't think that's going to happen.

I have this bad feeling that once he goes, my Grandma won't be far behind. See they're one of those couples that's been together since they were young, and honestly a lot of the time, I think the only reason they survive is because of each other. I think that's why my Grandpa's still hanging on.