So a couple weeks ago I had lost my motivation/inspiration for modelling and I didnt feel very confident that I was really any good at it in the first place. Since joining Suicide Girls I have never been more motivated. I have found the industry pretty hard to get into and to be honest, there are lot of rude and ignorant people that I met along the way, which made me kind of lose the drive to pursue it. I find it really hard to accept rudeness as I think it is totally unnecessary on all counts. Id like to think I am an intuitive person and usually my gut feeling of a person is right. I like to surround myself with only genuine kind people and Im unable to kiss ass which, perhaps has hindered me over the past year.
I feel like Ive spent the past year waiting for something to happen, putting in all this effort for things and not getting 100% effort back. Wasted time, however a lesson learned.
So now Im on the Suicide Girl site, and I can say with all the truth in my heart that I havent met a kinder bunch of people/members/models/photographers than these people. The staff are helpful, informative friendly and best of all, respectful. The members are lovely also and Im making some wonderful friends. Its a community.
I traveled to London today for a casting with SG and they have asked me to come back and shoot with them this coming Thursday with one of their staff photographers. Im really looking forward to it! I am also shooting another set with SG photographer Lavezzaro, who is coming to England for a week or so. We are going to get a few shots for a couple of tattoo magazines she works for also hopefully, so I feel pretty excited!
I guess what Im saying is when one door closes, another one opens, you know? Like maybe the path I was on before wasnt really for me. I finally feel like Im going somewhere with it all now, and Im doing it on my own, which gives me a sense of empowerment also. I feel like I have a place in this industry and Im not kidding myself anymore or trying to be someone that Im not.
So yeh, life is pretty good.
http://suicidegirls.com/members/GemmaKate/albums/site/33330/
I feel like Ive spent the past year waiting for something to happen, putting in all this effort for things and not getting 100% effort back. Wasted time, however a lesson learned.
So now Im on the Suicide Girl site, and I can say with all the truth in my heart that I havent met a kinder bunch of people/members/models/photographers than these people. The staff are helpful, informative friendly and best of all, respectful. The members are lovely also and Im making some wonderful friends. Its a community.
I traveled to London today for a casting with SG and they have asked me to come back and shoot with them this coming Thursday with one of their staff photographers. Im really looking forward to it! I am also shooting another set with SG photographer Lavezzaro, who is coming to England for a week or so. We are going to get a few shots for a couple of tattoo magazines she works for also hopefully, so I feel pretty excited!
I guess what Im saying is when one door closes, another one opens, you know? Like maybe the path I was on before wasnt really for me. I finally feel like Im going somewhere with it all now, and Im doing it on my own, which gives me a sense of empowerment also. I feel like I have a place in this industry and Im not kidding myself anymore or trying to be someone that Im not.
So yeh, life is pretty good.
http://suicidegirls.com/members/GemmaKate/albums/site/33330/
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lord_renob:
That's awesome news! Good luck with the shoot!
bagobolts:
That kicks a little ass. I a glad you are happy here. There are some good people on this site