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see you, space cowboy!

until we meet again.....

there is no earthly reason why i am wide awake right now.

:sigh:

i don't mean to complain-i truly don't.
i just can't help wondering what it will take for me to catch a break.
i have SO MUCH to be thankful for.
i feel so needlessly selfish even thinking it....
but couldn't i have had it the way i wanted it?
i get that so infrequently, and when i do i'm all the more delighted.
i...
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we got another kitty, to keep Therion company.
he's a bit bigger and all black as well.
his name is Aleister.
i love giving cats pretentious names.
i love potential blessings in disguise.
i love waking just before dawn and getting turbo-starch sugar nitrate breakfasts.
i love drinking just enough to make me warm and giddy.
i love sleeping in the buff.
i love being...
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HE'S BACK!
my Noah is finally back.
now, i shall sleep for a week.






"...i loved Sarah, Charles. It was mine, that love. I owned it. Even Sarah didn't have the right to take it away. I can love whoever I want."

"She thought you were pathetic."

"That was her business, not mine. You are what you love, not what loves you. I decided that...
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cinnamon-raisin toast rules my ass.

my Noah will be back tomorrow!!!
i have missed so enormously-maybe now i can sleep again.
he will come bearing tales of dust and debauchery.
:sigh:
i am a blessed woman.

i now have an open marriage.
we always discussed the possibility of such an arrangement, but it was something that was always projected.
not open in the "let's go...
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what i wouldn't give for a full night's sleep....

got a new car.
need a new job.
have an interview as a cocktail waitress at a "gentlemen's club" tomorrow-not exactly thrilled, but i need money and don't start my "real" job until the end of the month.
i hate money.
today is my 3rd wedding anniversary.
my husband is on the Playa.
i miss him terribly.
someone make me smile.

CHAOS NEVER DIED. Primordial uncarved block, sole worshipful monster, inert & spontaneous, more ultraviolet than any mythology (like the shadows before Babylon), the original undifferentiated oneness-of-being still radiates serene as the black pennants of Assassins, random & perpetually intoxicated.
Chaos comes before all principles of order & entropy, it's neither a god nor a maggot, its idiotic desires encompass & define every possible choreography, all...
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