change is occuring.
i'm not sure what it is that's happening in me, but i think i like it.
i've made some decisions-massive and potentially earth-shaking- in my life.
next november i will be relocating to los angeles for 4-6 months to go to school. cinema make-up school. i've done quite a bit of thinking-i've re-examined what i want to do, where i want to...
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i'm not sure what it is that's happening in me, but i think i like it.
i've made some decisions-massive and potentially earth-shaking- in my life.
next november i will be relocating to los angeles for 4-6 months to go to school. cinema make-up school. i've done quite a bit of thinking-i've re-examined what i want to do, where i want to...
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someone was kind enough to send me a link to a Japanese fan page full of pictures of my new infatuation. just a random act to make someone they have never met smile. just when the suspicion that the majority of humanity should be done away with, something miniscule yet brilliant occurs to remind me that maybe we all aren't so despicable. i know-it seems...
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souljerk:
Oh Mammy to you... U rule. I am inspired ...If I didn't know any better.. I would think your name was truly Tyler Durden.
from a potentualy old man I say Thank you Thank you Thank you...

from a potentualy old man I say Thank you Thank you Thank you...

souljerk:
Either way you posted it and in part it is yours, as definition to the passage that it holds. All thoughts original or not, once connived are at least a peace of your own being, since you were drawn to relate it ant any rate. Personal spin or not it still exactly what I needed to read, hear or what ever.
and to that I say you are Amazing....
...I don't Role On sabot....
and to that I say you are Amazing....
nothing is ever quite what it seems.
interpret that as you will.
hiroyuki sanada
interpret that as you will.
1_dying_wish:
har har, you spelled broke wrong!
midori:
I'm trying. But I am sick of swallowing the bitter. WAH WAH WAH
i love that words are so powerful and strong and beautiful and harsh and terrible and violent and amazing. i love people that can wield them in glorious ways, painting pictures and building universes and telling stories, destroying them again. its a gift, the ability to weave syllables and sentences together to create something that is tangible, something that people can feel, be touched by....
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ndoki:
you are very welcome...i am happy to hear you liked them
it feels good to draw again...
really, thank you so much
it feels good to draw again...
really, thank you so much
midori:
Ah yes, he needed much consoling. But he was great anyway.
ok, against my better judgement i went and saw The Last Samurai, and i was completely shattered and blown away. this film was wonderful.
now, i'm no Tommy Cruise fan, but i was able to overlook any prior roles and really genuinely appreciate his performance. no Top Gun or Interview w/ the Vampire here. however, i think any other accomplished american actor could have performed...
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now, i'm no Tommy Cruise fan, but i was able to overlook any prior roles and really genuinely appreciate his performance. no Top Gun or Interview w/ the Vampire here. however, i think any other accomplished american actor could have performed...
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bean:
hehe...thanks.
hehe...thanks.
les:
'tis a fine name indeed for an aloe.
you are right about the job, but then I feel that way about any job. I wish I could get paid to smoke good stuff and sit on my arse all day.
you are right about the job, but then I feel that way about any job. I wish I could get paid to smoke good stuff and sit on my arse all day.
i may be MIA for awhile-trying to get everything settled in between work and general duties.
a close friend of mine is having a tumor removed from her pituitary gland next week. it's benign, but it bleeds and causes her great pain. i feel so helpless. she's so young. she and her girlfriend are making light of the whole situation, so it's difficult to know...
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a close friend of mine is having a tumor removed from her pituitary gland next week. it's benign, but it bleeds and causes her great pain. i feel so helpless. she's so young. she and her girlfriend are making light of the whole situation, so it's difficult to know...
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sarcastro:
I know the feeling of helplessness when you see a loved one suffering. It sucks, but you feeling horrible can't make things better. Making light of it is probably the thing to do. Laughter might not be the best medicine, but its pretty damn great.
greggster:
that is horrible dear....take care and come back soon....are you still going to attend SGSAC XMAS?
:sigh: i just happened across the FAT CHICKS, et al. thread and realized what a short distance people have truly evolved.
i will always respect someone that makes an intelligent, informed, and eloquent argument- i will genuinely listen and formulate an opinion if they have something compelling and thought-provoking to contribute.
however-this is a subject that i hold very near and dear-
several people made...
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i will always respect someone that makes an intelligent, informed, and eloquent argument- i will genuinely listen and formulate an opinion if they have something compelling and thought-provoking to contribute.
however-this is a subject that i hold very near and dear-
several people made...
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evil:
You are beautiful! Fuck everyone else!
1_dying_wish:
damn, some of those SGs are kinda fucked up. damn. well, i guess my fantasy of all of them being cool has been shattered. like evil says, fuck em.
just got word that we were approved for the raddest apartment in midtown.
i think i pissed myself with joy.
thanksgiving was allright-got to see lots o'family and have a lousy, lurking hangover.
how is everyone?
i think i pissed myself with joy.
thanksgiving was allright-got to see lots o'family and have a lousy, lurking hangover.
how is everyone?
1_dying_wish:
congratulations! that's awesome!@
thanksgiving was alright... we spent all the previous day and day of preparing a feast for our 2 guests... then we stuffed ourselves for two days.. i feel the need to go for a run now...
thanksgiving was alright... we spent all the previous day and day of preparing a feast for our 2 guests... then we stuffed ourselves for two days.. i feel the need to go for a run now...
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1_dying_wish:
i can't read that fast 
les:
happy t day!
it's so....
something.
ridiculous and foolish?
but i see- your devasting everything
when you appear
suddenly
in my peripheral
and that rush of blood
red and pink
the flush-the heat
the cloudy haze
the dizziness
that follows
and i think such dirty, pretty things
the scenarios
the dreams
of what i could do
what i wouldn't do
to you
you smile so sweet
so soft...
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something.
ridiculous and foolish?
but i see- your devasting everything
when you appear
suddenly
in my peripheral
and that rush of blood
red and pink
the flush-the heat
the cloudy haze
the dizziness
that follows
and i think such dirty, pretty things
the scenarios
the dreams
of what i could do
what i wouldn't do
to you
you smile so sweet
so soft...
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1_dying_wish:
good wow
1_dying_wish:
good wow 
He thought critics were so absurd that he purposely fed them crap to laugh in their faces.
When I was very young I discovered that, for me, a journey is the best way to learn. I still have this pilgrim's soul to this day, and have decided to relate some of the lessons I have learned, in the hopes that they will be useful to other like-minded pilgrims.
1] Avoid museums. This advice may seem absurd, but let us reflect a little together: if you are in a foreign city, isn't it far more interesting to seek out the present, than the past? Usually, people feel obliged to go to museums, because ever since they were small they have been told that traveling is a search for this type of culture. Of course museums are important, but they require time and objectivity - you need to know what it is you want to see there, otherwise you will come away with the impression that you saw several things which are fundamental to your life, but cannot remember what they were.
2] Frequent bars. Unlike museums, this is where the life of the city can be found. Bars are not discotheques, but places where the people gather to have a drink, pass the time, and are always willing to chat. Buy a newspaper and observe the bustle of people coming and going. If someone speaks to you, strike up a conversation, however banal: one cannot judge the beauty of a path merely by looking at its entrance.
3] Be open and forward. The best tourist guide is someone who lives there, knows everything, but doesn't work at a travel agency. Go out into the street, choose someone you wish to speak to, and ask him or her for directions (where is such-and-such a cathedral? Where is the post office?) If this bears no fruit, try someone else - I guarantee that in the end you will find excellent company.
4] Try and travel alone, or - if you are married - with your spouse. It will be harder work, no one will be looking after you, but this is the only way of truly leaving your country. Group travel is just a disguised way of pretending to go abroad, where you speak your own language, obey the leader of the pack, and concern yourself more with the internal gossip of the group than with the place you are visiting.
5] Don't compare. Don't compare anything - not prices, nor cleanliness, nor quality of life, nor means of transport, nothing! You are not traveling in order to prove you live better than others - your search, in fact, is to find out how others live, what they have to teach, how they view reality and the extraordinary things in life.
6] Understand that everyone understands you. Even if you don't speak the language, don't be afraid: I have been in many places in which there was no way of communicating with words, and I always found support, guidance, important suggestions, even girlfriends. Some people think that if you travel alone, you will go out into the street and be lost forever. All you need is the hotel card in your pocket, and - should you find yourself in extreme circumstances - take a taxi and show it to the driver.
7] Don't buy much. Spend your money on things which you won't have to carry: good theater, restaurants, walks. Nowadays, with the global market and the Internet, you can have everything you want without having to pay for excess baggage.
8] Don't try and see the world in a month. It is better to stay in one city for four or five days, that visit five cities in a week. A city is like a capricious woman, who needs time to be seduced and reveal herself completely.
9] A journey is an adventure. Henry Miller said that it is far more important to discover a church no one has heard of, than go to Rome and feel obliged to visit the Sistine Chapel, with two hundred thousand tourists shouting all around you. Go to the Sistine Chapel, but also get lost in the streets, wander down alleyways, feel free to look for something, without knowing what it is. I swear you will find it and that it will change your life.
[Edited on Dec 18, 2003 6:44PM]