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leaving-

...she worships the hot pink crush of desperately wanting that which she will never ever have...she dreams of love & bed & skin whispers, grasping with 1,000 fingers at any hint of reciprocation...it's never there; its not her fault, really, that she could never please them...

she doesn't have a dick.

it kills her a little more each time...

i know

you know

she knows

i can't take it

i can't seem to make it worth my while

it chews away at me sometimes

it hurts me so to fake this smile

and sometimes i can't seem to shake this feeling

it sometimes leaves me broken and bleeding-inside

feels like being all alone in a room full of souls

always on the outside, looking out

reminded of a time when you were "it"

all i needed to feel at home in a place i was alone

reminded of how we'd shout,

opening doors, slamming them again

resulted in bleeding hearts and bad brains on both sides

you'll never know how much you hurt or how many times i've silently cried

so, we quit while we're still ahead

while we're still alive

i gave you one chance to say "goodbye"

then i made like a tree....
-me





jeff buckley is the elevator music in my daydreams and reveries.

for Amber, my dear friend-may you never know....