gekkeiju23

:sigh:

....and i will be your love song.
seeing you again brings back like old times all those big things we were going to do, to be, to live forever and grow old together.
us.
and tripping over the tip of my tongue-what's on it?
what have i always felt and meant to say and i can't remember how it is that we never made it very far-always on a track-
sort-of right and 1/2 wrong but
why does it matter?
we didn't win.
timing is worse than clumsiness-
falling off the You building
down
down
down....
5 years and a million stories later
the impact of that which i cannot deny crushes me...
i love you still.




#2
i realize that:
idon'tloveyouandhaven'tlovedyouall
theseyearsandthateverytimeiseeyoui
don'twanttocryforsomethinglostand
nevergainedandhowdoyoumisssomethingyouneverreallyhad?andilookatyouandbarelyrecallhowitfelto
bethoughtofsohighly,tothinkofsomeonesohighly.andidon'tmissour"maybe"our
"possibly"our"almost".weweregrowingold
together,no,
weneverwere.andourbigdreamsandbig
ideasmeannothingnow.
andi'mnothungryandidon'twanttodevour
youandi'mnotgreedyandblackinside.
andourhistorymeansnothingandyou're
noonetome.andifineverseeyouagain
andnothavetofeellikethisi
mightjustbeabletolivewithmyself.
andbeingwithoutyouaroundisbetterthan
this.anddon'toyouknow?
not a word of this is true.