conditioned to feel nothing.
we turn our backs on all the crimes.
they say what we don't know wont hurt us, but nothing could be further from the
truth.
cries fall on deaf ears, and the killing continues.
[chorus]
in your uncaring life - we are worlds apart.
in this race doomed to fail - we are worlds apart.
in this system you support -...
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we turn our backs on all the crimes.
they say what we don't know wont hurt us, but nothing could be further from the
truth.
cries fall on deaf ears, and the killing continues.
[chorus]
in your uncaring life - we are worlds apart.
in this race doomed to fail - we are worlds apart.
in this system you support -...
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ok, i guess i should explain the last to entries as they are apparently a little cryptic.
ok, since about a week ago i've been hanging out with a wonderful (or so i thought). we met at her work due to our work schedules conflicting or spent hours on the phone. we got along fine, and made out a bit over her dinner break a...
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ok, since about a week ago i've been hanging out with a wonderful (or so i thought). we met at her work due to our work schedules conflicting or spent hours on the phone. we got along fine, and made out a bit over her dinner break a...
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deathtoforls:
I am doing much better today...Thank you for asking 
That sucks...what a cunt...be glad you found out sooner rather than later. She probably had VD anyways 
. Single is good, single is freedom...just think about marriage and you'll appreciate it more and more 
. Besides, with all your lovely lady friends, why bother with the drama of a girlfriend? You have to put up w/ their bad moods, buy 'em shit on holidays, and in my experience, being in a relationship for long enough pretty much makes it certain you wont get laid very often, hehe. 
That sucks...what a cunt...be glad you found out sooner rather than later. She probably had VD anyways . Single is good, single is freedom...just think about marriage and you'll appreciate it more and more . Besides, with all your lovely lady friends, why bother with the drama of a girlfriend? You have to put up w/ their bad moods, buy 'em shit on holidays, and in my experience, being in a relationship for long enough pretty much makes it certain you wont get laid very often, hehe. 
bluevalentine:
I;m up for it. we could probably talk Jocelyn into it. I'll check with Jonathan too
i am not a rock star. i'm the same lonely piece of shit i was two days before today. i give up.
-the geist
-the geist
xmilitaryxmikex:
Yeah, it'd be nice to mob on the motherfuckers that did this shit, but I can't be too, too mad about the casserole on my truck. At least it was that and not keyed or anything worse.
other than that, now what's up with you?
other than that, now what's up with you?
randomrockstar:
But you never said why you were a rock star in the first place...
I think that you are a rockstar, if it's any consolation.
I AM A ROCKSTAR, even though I've been horribly depressed lately. I've been thinking a lot about suicide, even though I'd never kill myself...more like other people commiting suicide...I don't know. I'm rambling in you journal..."look at me! I'm an attention whore!"
I think that you are a rockstar, if it's any consolation.
I AM A ROCKSTAR, even though I've been horribly depressed lately. I've been thinking a lot about suicide, even though I'd never kill myself...more like other people commiting suicide...I don't know. I'm rambling in you journal..."look at me! I'm an attention whore!"
i am a fucking rock star. more later, as work will begin soon and i need the four hours of sleep i'm getting tonight.
-the geist
-the geist
xmilitaryxmikex:
you mother effin pimp! hahahaha 
deathtoforls:
Hiyas, did not get the chance to call ya back as I was in the midst of a seriously loud and rawking show in Dallas when you called, but you should dial my digits later, iffin ya wanna
cable guy just left. more later.
-the geist
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well cats and kittens, it appears to have not taken nearly as long as i thought it might to get back here. thank...uh....random chaotic fate (what, i'm an athiest)
so yeah, got to hang out with some cool people at BlueValentine's party on the fourth. much fun. and i still plan on stealing her dog....
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-the geist
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well cats and kittens, it appears to have not taken nearly as long as i thought it might to get back here. thank...uh....random chaotic fate (what, i'm an athiest)
so yeah, got to hang out with some cool people at BlueValentine's party on the fourth. much fun. and i still plan on stealing her dog....
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bluevalentine:
I do have your sunglasses..
paintedbat:
wow that was fast!
glad you're back
glad you're back
this is not goodbye. only a farewell and a promise of return.
-the geist
-the geist
xmilitaryxmikex:
whoops, sorry...didn't bother to double check who they were. 
ok, last post here for an indefinite period of time, as my room mate's leaving and i don't have the money to fix the modem in my laptop. so no computer access until my bonus gets here. sorry guys. so i leave you with neitzsche.
Plan for an unfinished book: The Eternal Recurrence
My philosophy brings the triumphant idea of which all other modes of...
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Plan for an unfinished book: The Eternal Recurrence
My philosophy brings the triumphant idea of which all other modes of...
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paintedbat:
awww man thta sucks!!!
ow long do you think you'll be gone?
ow long do you think you'll be gone?
xmilitaryxmikex:
yeah, just like he^^^^ said!
ok day today. still no bonus, but i'm beginning to give up hope that 4 years and three deployments doesn't mean shit to the army. we are truly a mercenary force. but that also means i can quit. which i will, if my cash isn't here by the end of july.
on a brighter note, i'll be attending my first suicide girls event in austin...
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baby_c:
hey im goin to the army. kool. 
baby_c:
well my sis is in the marines brother is goin in the navy and my dad really wants me in the army. i now it sux. but i can make it fun
is that him?
i just want to pull the hood up and wander out into the city, alone, even if only inside my head. ignoring the pointing fingers and stares. the whispers. slide past them all in the fog of thoughts, pass them by like i wish i could the memories.
i thought he'd look different
they always say legends never die. what they never...
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i just want to pull the hood up and wander out into the city, alone, even if only inside my head. ignoring the pointing fingers and stares. the whispers. slide past them all in the fog of thoughts, pass them by like i wish i could the memories.
i thought he'd look different
they always say legends never die. what they never...
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is it bad that the thing i want most to to never have existed at all?
-the geist
-the geist
xmilitaryxmikex:
see: A Miracle on 34th Street
see: Family Man
"Self-pity" isn't the right term, but it's the first term that comes to mind.
Keep it posi!
see: Family Man
"Self-pity" isn't the right term, but it's the first term that comes to mind.
Keep it posi!
xmilitaryxmikex:
I wouldn't assume that you're feeling pitiful honestly. I think everyone feels that way from time to time. Even I have those thoughts every once in a while especially when I'm down.
Most times, I feel the tuff guy asshole part of me. It's more me when I think about it, and from what others have told me. It's that overbearing sense of I won't be defeated because I'm too proud to accept defeat or failure. Maybe it makes me an asshole with a penchant for violence, but it's a negative outlook that turns into a positive result.
"The world is a horrible place, and is worth fighting for..."
Most times, I feel the tuff guy asshole part of me. It's more me when I think about it, and from what others have told me. It's that overbearing sense of I won't be defeated because I'm too proud to accept defeat or failure. Maybe it makes me an asshole with a penchant for violence, but it's a negative outlook that turns into a positive result.
"The world is a horrible place, and is worth fighting for..."
I do have the black thick-rimmed glasses, though.