geist81

ok, update happening now due to many frustrations and a bit of just pissyness...

ok, this is more me being frustrated by me than anything else...coughing up blood again, yet still can't quit smoking....what am i, retarded?

the girl is frustrating me...when we dated off and on in highschool...or as i called it...my delinquent phase, she used to do all sorts of shit trying to be a bad girl. and now she seems to be starting it up again. now we all know that i used to be a bit of a how we say....junkie. so, while i do not think doing drugs makes you a bad person by default, i will not date you if you drug use moves past ciggies and booze. and if you are a hardcore alcoholic of any kind, that's a deal breaker too. so all of a sudden once we start seeing each other again, she's drinking like a fish and talking about playing puff puff pass again, and got pissed at me when i told her the first was a bit off and the second means i'll walk.

what is it with women? she gets kicked out of a class she's already failed once because she was hung over one time too many, and now she's talking about smoking again. can people just not understand that most of us with addictions in our past don't particularly want to be around it again (and in my case, shouldn't and refuse to be around it again)? is this somehow hard to understand?

christ people....one of you just beat me to death ok?

tired of being sick, tired of being tired, tired of the fucking army, tired of all the bullshit, tired of it all....



-the geist

ps-what the hell has been going on around here? i'm rather confused.