geist81

Ok, Mike asked me to explain why I'm about to take a two month hiatus from my life. No books, no movies, no magazines, no music, no interweb, no myspace, no suicide girls, no Protect, no Punks Protect Kids, no nothing. No external stimuli of a voluntary nature of any kind. I will eat, sleep, shower, workout and go to work starting Friday and ending sometime in January. The time not spent on the aforementioned activities will be spend in introspection and figuring out my basic self, along with what I really want.
I know this sounds rather extreme, but the way my life is right now is literally making me sick. I won't go into detail, but even the medics have told me it would be a very good idea to slow down and take a step back. I however, being me, have decided to cut it all out.
This has nothing to do with any particular persons, there actions, or anything to do with anyone else's anything. I'm doing this for me, because I have to. If I don't, I'm going to end up burning out before I even start.
I still care about everybody on my freinds list. Every single one of you is important to me, and will stay that way. I know that I'm going to miss you guys over the next while, and hopefully at least a few of you are going to miss me. But this is something I have to do.
I have to cut out everything and everyone for a while, to figure out where I'm at, who I am. I've been defining myself with other people's words and ideas for too long. And now I've come to the end of my ability to tolerate that from myself. I'm damaged by the years of this, and I've got to fix and salvage what I can, which is hopefully more than I'm expecting to be able to in reality.
This will be hard on me, and several people have already commented on this fact. But nothing worth having will or ever has come easy.
Please don't anyone think this is from anything any of you here have done, but I have to do this.

-josh