is that him?
i just want to pull the hood up and wander out into the city, alone, even if only inside my head. ignoring the pointing fingers and stares. the whispers. slide past them all in the fog of thoughts, pass them by like i wish i could the memories.
i thought he'd look different
they always say legends never die. what they never...
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i just want to pull the hood up and wander out into the city, alone, even if only inside my head. ignoring the pointing fingers and stares. the whispers. slide past them all in the fog of thoughts, pass them by like i wish i could the memories.
i thought he'd look different
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is it bad that the thing i want most to to never have existed at all?
-the geist
-the geist
xmilitaryxmikex:
see: A Miracle on 34th Street
see: Family Man
"Self-pity" isn't the right term, but it's the first term that comes to mind.
Keep it posi!
see: Family Man
"Self-pity" isn't the right term, but it's the first term that comes to mind.
Keep it posi!
xmilitaryxmikex:
I wouldn't assume that you're feeling pitiful honestly. I think everyone feels that way from time to time. Even I have those thoughts every once in a while especially when I'm down.
Most times, I feel the tuff guy asshole part of me. It's more me when I think about it, and from what others have told me. It's that overbearing sense of I won't be defeated because I'm too proud to accept defeat or failure. Maybe it makes me an asshole with a penchant for violence, but it's a negative outlook that turns into a positive result.
"The world is a horrible place, and is worth fighting for..."
Most times, I feel the tuff guy asshole part of me. It's more me when I think about it, and from what others have told me. It's that overbearing sense of I won't be defeated because I'm too proud to accept defeat or failure. Maybe it makes me an asshole with a penchant for violence, but it's a negative outlook that turns into a positive result.
"The world is a horrible place, and is worth fighting for..."
well, nothings really going on this weekend. beat fable again. pulled my lower back doing a new vault last night. so i'm sore. looks like more fable today.
-the geist
-the geist
xmilitaryxmikex:
pulled your lower back? that sucks...
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pharmgirl:
Thank you. 
randomrockstar:
Oh wow!! There's nothing like going to check a friend's post and seeing a great big plug for yourself. What a fantastic compliment!!
Thank you! 
Thank you!
don't be too concerned about the last entry, just needed to vent a few things and get my head back to a steadier keel. odd way of doing it i know, but it's safer here in some ways. while it's still my plan, rest assured that it will be many, many, many moons before i've fufilled the oaths and obligations that keep me here.
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randomrockstar:
My ac adapter in my car is hot. I don't have to have the car on.
xmilitaryxmikex:
the Straight Edge kid says: DON'T BE A PUSSY AND DRINK JAGER BOMBS AND HEINEKEN LIKE A REAL MAN!
hahahaha jk.
hahahaha jk.
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xmilitaryxmikex:
I don't want to say either because I don't want anyone to rip it off. Just think about it as it relates to your journal entry...
morgan:
"listen for the soft little voice that tells you what you don't particularly want to hear at the moment, but you know is right."
Oh wow...that is such good advice. Seriousy. Thank you. I'm going to use that from now on, or at least try to.
Oh wow...that is such good advice. Seriousy. Thank you. I'm going to use that from now on, or at least try to.
ok, brain and body have finally recovered from the benenfit and the bout of food poisoning enough to update. benefit went well, made some money, got some people signed up. didn't make as much as i wanted to, but definitely learned exactly what i need to do for these for when i get back east. still tired and not feeling terrribly well. more later.
Friend....
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xmilitaryxmikex:
4th of July weekend I'm looking at going down to Austin to kick it with my best friend (who also got out of the Navy and now lives in Houston) who I haven't seen in almost a year.
Let me get back with you on what's up with some shows coming up.
Let me get back with you on what's up with some shows coming up.
randomrockstar:
What the hell was that!?!
ok guys, today's the day. zero hour day. ended up not having to work today, but tomorrow. benefit is tonight. literature is done, stickers are sorted. hopefully all goes well. wish me luck.
if you're there, look me up. i'll be the guy with the "defend hardcore" shirt on from most precious blood.
no nietzsche for this one.
The hallmark of courage in our age...
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if you're there, look me up. i'll be the guy with the "defend hardcore" shirt on from most precious blood.
no nietzsche for this one.
The hallmark of courage in our age...
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exquisite:
So there.
... just need a lift. Via plane?
... just need a lift. Via plane?
paintedbat:
wow the exchange rate is awesome!!!
I just hope I can afford haveing 2 boyfriends
I just hope I can afford haveing 2 boyfriends
spent the day running around finishing up last minute stuff for the benefit and watching tv. finished up two trains running by andrew vachss. highly recommend it to any and everyone. loved it.
other than that been on the phone. taking care of stuff here, in austin and on the coast.
more tomorrow after the show. maybe.
Talent. The talent of some men appears slighter...
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other than that been on the phone. taking care of stuff here, in austin and on the coast.
more tomorrow after the show. maybe.
Talent. The talent of some men appears slighter...
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for some reason, these lyrics are in my head all day today. so here they are.
artist: evergreen terrace
song: understanding the fear that lies within
This is everything you know, goodbye.
Take my hand. Here it is.
I will go. I'll be with you.
I will go. I'll stay with you.
See these scars?
They're for remembering.
Priceless mistakes will steal everything.
Who will...
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artist: evergreen terrace
song: understanding the fear that lies within
This is everything you know, goodbye.
Take my hand. Here it is.
I will go. I'll be with you.
I will go. I'll stay with you.
See these scars?
They're for remembering.
Priceless mistakes will steal everything.
Who will...
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xmilitaryxmikex:
yeah, I got into a Hatebreed mood after posting in the Hardcore group. 
exquisite:
I dunno, I don't think punching you would help... I think when the file is finished I'll feel better. Especially since the chick doesn't realize that she's not actually getting the settlement she thinks she is, because she owes our client a huge chunk o' change in court awarded costs mwuahahaha.
I've had Mr. Roboto stuck in my head all day. I have issues.
I've had Mr. Roboto stuck in my head all day. I have issues.
work has kicked my ass the last two days. not so much today as yesterday, but i've been out of the dfac for too long. the crew i'm working with is cool though. got another east coaster (from philly) and all of us seem to work well together, so that's good.
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frantic:
work is annoying me there is way too much stuff to learn just to become a manager at mcd's what do you do?
nothing much today. worked on benefit stuff, talked to scott and trey. played some rachet and clank. slept, caught up on laundry.
here's today's quote from everybody's favorite:
This book belongs to the very few. Perhaps not one of them is even living yet. Maybe they will be the readers who understand my Zarathustra: how could I mistake myself for one of those for whom...
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here's today's quote from everybody's favorite:
This book belongs to the very few. Perhaps not one of them is even living yet. Maybe they will be the readers who understand my Zarathustra: how could I mistake myself for one of those for whom...
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molonel:
What sort of theology texts might you be looking for?
I'm sorry, the only reason I thought the question was odd was because I live near Powell's City of Books, so I've never had trouble finding anything at all.
I'm sorry, the only reason I thought the question was odd was because I live near Powell's City of Books, so I've never had trouble finding anything at all.