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Hey All,
I hope all is well with everyone. Wow, I have never gotten such a response as I did with my last blog! Thank you to everyone who commented and/or messaged me about it. That was friggin awesome! I guess I need to show some flesh to get your attention, or maybe it is my poetry! lol Has everyone finally started to appreciate my poetry? nah!
I did want to clarify something about one of the pictures I posted in last weeks blog. That is not my own butt above me in that picture. It is Kelli's. I wish I could get in a position like that!!!! But then I would need to post it in the masturbation or oral sex group LMAO!
For those of you wondering, yes, I consider myself pretty flexible, but not THAT flexible! Here is a photo showing some of my flexibility.



Kelli did appreciate all of the nice comments too, so she says thank you.
I did post some new pictures on my page this past weekend of me and my teddy bear, so if you haven't seen them go and take a look and let me know what you think (subliminally whoring for comments there). Here is a sample.



I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving!
For those of you that do enjoy my poetry here a 2 short ones. I am currently working on one that I hope to post in my next blog, but until then I hope these 2 will hold you over.

~ A Continued Disgrace ~

Ive never wanted to be anyone else
I was proud of who I was.
I fought a long and hard battle for the diversity in my life.
For you to love me for all that I am, rather than all that I am not.
Not once have I hung my head in shame
Or to be ashamed of who I am.
Today I found myself hiding my face
Embarrassed of what I stand for.
And deep down wishing I wasnt who I am today.
Wishing I was that pretty straight girl that gets her way with a simple flip of her hair.
Wishing I wasnt such a disgrace to those around me.
It never mattered before...
I would stand up proud in your face and force you to deal.
Now I cower from the looks, and wish I could change everything about me.
Its sad when I look in the mirror and hate the person staring back.
And all that she has grown to be.
And with every poem I write, I repeat myself
For nothing has changed.
So I sit again in front of this screen and I cry my little heart out with every word I type
A continued pattern for the rest of my life
A continued disgrace.

My Kingdom Come

and I am a long way from there
in my kingdom come
with a broken pencil listening to Cohen
watching snowflakes fall

and I am a long way from silence
drifting in this white
ice castles melting
sometimes I'm more homeless than I thought

Hold me until I believe
in people again
in the heart of things
in the fate of things

and engage me in the responsibility
my personal one
to hold onto another
for the same reason

In my kingdom come
and gone
tell me that it was suppose to be like that
when the lesson hits hard

Remind me, that it is what you have been saying all along
in just loving me
and I will understand
the sacrifices

The snow falls
and here we are
I ask you by the fire
to throw in the words you never said
let me hold you now instead
by the clarity I have found
Let me love you now instead...
by the clarity I have found~