geeksusie

Hey everyone!
Sorry about not posting last week. It has been a very big past 2 weeks for me. I started my new job and I have some other big news too. I love my new job, it's a lot of work and I am learning a lot. My boss is awesome, he is so helpful. I feel like I made the right decision switching fields and getting into computers. Plus I think the receptionist is flirting with me! lol Just kidding.
My other big news is that I asked Kelli to move in with me and she said yes!!! Friggin awesome!!! We do have to make some changes though, and we just made the biggest one. Her grandparents don't know she is gay, and she has no plans on telling them. So we had to find a new apartment with 2 bedrooms, just in case they visit. This way we can tell them we are roommates. We just put down a deposit and signed a lease today for a new apartment in Mechanicville. It's walking distance to everything and it is so nice. It's about 15 miles north of Albany, so it's still close to work and it's just a short hop if we want to go to the clubs there. And yes bigpianist, it is still close to DiCarlo's so I can still stop by and get that lap dance you offered! lol We don't have to buy a lot of stuff because we already have a lot of junk. Plus we already have 2 beds so we can put the small one in Kelli's fake bedroom. This is so awesome! I can't wait. We have to wait until April 1 to move in though. I already promised Kelli a nice romantic dinner our first night in the place. Sorry, I know I keep going on and on, and this is so gay, but I am really psyched!
Well, that's my life in a nutshell right now. I am definitely in a happy place!


Kelli & me

Okay, now it's time for this weeks poems. Forgive me if I get a bit sappy in these, but it's a good sappy, lol. I hope everyone is great!

being near you

my mind catches a glimpse
of being near you
when your head turns so
and you meet my eyes
I hear your wordless thoughts
no other eyes speak to me in this way
Im captivated by the slight crinkle in the corner of your eyes
your nearness reverberates a pulse to me, through me and back to sender
my finger reaches out to lightly touch your wrist
I need to touch you
connect with you
electrons go dizzy within this space
nothing moves, yet everything is moved
my heart listens and then tumbles over itself to make sure you hear its promise,
in this moment sits silence
yet I have never heard more said
I watch as a small soft smile crosses your face
acknowledging youre conscious of our entanglement
I watch your side profile as you gaze off into the distance
I see you drawn back to me, and turn your head to pour your eyes deep into mine,
a need so exquisite, I have to consume you
merge into you
become you
breathe you
all this I do, just sitting near you
and when your head turns so,
I think I might just explode with what my being contains
being near you

Cages

We build ourselves our cages
With bars designed from fear
Erecting them determinedly
As we live year to year
A bar of insecurity
A bar of jealous pride
A bar of our defeatism
To keep us safe inside

Then crouched behind our barrier
We stare persistently
And pace in endless torment
Dreaming of being free
Resenting our imprisonment
And crying through our bars
Yet never realizing that
The answer was always ours

Now I have bent the bars of
The cage that I had built,
I've stepped out of my prison
And am free from fear and guilt
I'm making my way onwards
To lands I've never known
And though I may find danger
I do not walk alone

My warrior and Angel
Rides always at my side
Setting her lance forward
That threats might be denied
I stand before her naked
Unfettered by my shame
And on the winds, in song I hear
Her whispering my name