geekgoddess

Ok, so life has been kind of shitty lately. I"m tired of being lonely and miserable. It's the worst feeling ever. It sucks because i feel that I'm in a three-way marriage with my husband and the Army. And what sucks even more is that the Army gets more of his time then we do. It's frustrating that not only is he stressed out, but i cant do a damned thing about it. I cant give him a hug, or a back rub, or even cook him diner. We don't get to see him and i cant even help him. I'm so tired of being away from him and just want to be in his arms. You would think that i would be used to this by now, but im not! I want him more ever second that we are apart!! Its hard to breathe without him or even fucking think. And whats worse is that sometimes i take it out on him that i miss him and hate being apart. When there is nothing he can do about and works his ass off all day long and then has to listen to me bitch that i never see him. I'm such a crappy wife. He is in the same position that im in except worse. At least i have our son who looks and acts so much like his Daddy that at least i have a little piece of him with me. My man is all alone over there and it sucks that i cant be there for him. I try to not let things bother me, but it does. I miss him so much and im just not sure how to deal with all this. I just want him to hold me (and for the Army to not work him so hard ha!) It sucks that because we are apart and so stressed out in our own lives the small amount of time we do talk we take out our stress on each other. Its so hard to work on a marriage when you are a billion trillion miles away. I am counting down the days until i go visit him sometime in April and very excited for him to finally come home sometime in August. I'm probably going to be a sobbing mess when i do get to see him. Poor hubby, hasn't seen me since July and the first thing im going to do is jump in his arms and soak his shirt with my tears and demand that he holds me for at least an hour! lol I'm very Lucky i have such a wonderful man, Mr_Geek who willing puts up with all my emotionalness (is that a word? i don't think so) Needless to say, I miss Mr_Geek and love him with all my heart. And im sorry that sometimes im an emotional mess and cry to much, but i only have the emotions cause i love him so much.

Our son, although he can be very temperamental and severely stubborn (much like his Father ), is what keeps me going. He is so funny and its such a joy to watch him grow a develop his personality. I never really saw myself as a mom and having a kid when i was younger, but i have to say this is one of the best experience of my life! He is most definitely a charmer and can charm the socks off everyone he meets. Especially the ladies. He is only 17 months, but just one trip to Walmart and he has the affections of many girls. I have noticed a particular trend of girls he flirts with most and im not sure what to think about it. He tends to like blondes..... or exotic looking women with accents.... Its so fun to watch him laid back in the shopping car sitting flashing smiles and blowing kisses to women where we go. I don't know where he gets it.... lol. He is such a goober. He has recently learned to climb hooray for mommy.... haha. On a sad note, he has been sick a lot lately, along with most of the residents here in springfield. At first he had an infection around his bronchial tube so we started antibiotics, and then a week later he had an infection in his ears, so now more antibiotics. Hopefully he will be all better by the time we leave for Spain, march 4th. He has been extremely fussy and clingy lately cause he hasnt been feeling good and just wants mommy to hold him. Which is nice, but yet frustrating because it is hard to get anything done.
Ok now time for some pictures of our lil' guy!
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Baby Yoda Kitteh



Jedi Kitteh

Darth Kitteh



Jawa Kitteh

Jabba Kitteh

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