geckogirl

so my grandmother died last night. my dad's mom. i dont think i have spoken to her since my wedding. we were not close.

but that's an interesting thing for me to think about these days; when i'm looking at my life changing drastically. how do i feel about having such distant relationships with my extended family? even my immediate family? heck, even with my friends. why do i structure my relationships like that?

in the case of my family, my parents (esp. mom) have loads of issues with their parents so that feeling and information trickled down to me and my sisters. but sarah stays in touch for money. and emily out of a sense of duty. why was/is it so easy for me to just remove myself from it?

ahhhh. nevermind. i just figured it out.


i know that i just lost a friend off my list and i dont know who it was. that drives me nuts but plays very nicely into the theme of this journal entry. well done.