gears

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Eh, I got nothin'. I need inspiration!!!!! And some motivation! The weather is finally getting nice, and I'm still cooped up in the apartment, I'm feeling claustrophobic, and restless. Grrr. I want to go play frisbee, or SOMETHING!!!!!!! Arrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Down to two days a week at work.... which is now an issue all of a sudden, because the owner gave a speech about how we can't turn away business... we're not!!!!! I work three days a week to begin with, the other assistant, two. So, they want to cut costs.... so we closed Thursday off.... one day.... and we schedule people for the FOLLOWING day... we don't tell them, ''no, we're not going to groom your dog at all''... no, we say, we're sorry, but we're temporarily closed Thursdays, would you like to reschedule for Friday through Sunday, or the following Tuesday? Which is exactly what I did for the Dachshund that has started coming in for hydro therapy in the hot tub... and his mom was FINE with it!!! So....... I just nod my head and keep my mouth shut. My boss was upset though, and it made me feel terrible... because I didn't know what to do or say... she was so mad that she was almost in tears... and I felt helpless. Sigh.

I got an email last night about my classes I have to take for work... I now have month to complete them, instead of two. Hooray for stress. Ug. Rock, meet Hard place...

Back to bartending I go, I guess. Big sigh. I want to be able to go stuff on a whim, and get stuff.... I found a pair of hot pink, FUZZY zebra print knee high socks, that I've decided I MUST have. Lol. Tacky, yes, but oh so fun!!!

I guess I'm just frustrated because nothing is working out the way I was hoping it would. I want a career, which I'm FINALLY on my way towards.... but still so much more to do... I want a back up plan, which I don't have... someday in the next few years, I want to buy a house, I had wanted to buy a new (well, new to me) vehicle this year, or a street bike (suzuki gsxr 600 or 750... i was learning on a honda cbr 600, but it's a little tall for me, the suzuki's fit me a litlte better.), vacation, etc..... and nothing is falling into place.... and it's driving me up the wall!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

It's sunny and pretty out, maybe I'll take a walk later and go get ice cream... hopefully, I think that'd cheer me up a little... I love going and getting ice cream. Goal for today, get ice cream.