Been a while since I've written anything. Not quite sure if anyone is actually out there reading, but I figure it may be therapeutic to get this all out and on the screen, since I've been keeping it in for the past few weeks and just...dealing.
June will go down as one of the worst months I've had in my life in a long time. Started with a typical Dr's appointment, where the more we talked, the more concerned he got about me. Getting diagnosed with clinical depression was not something I was expecting to come from that checkup. Therapist appt made, I figured, ok, I can handle this...it's ok. Lots of people go through this. I can too. It's ok. It's all ok.
Except for that mole on my stomach that my doc wanted me to get looked at that turned out to be cancerous. So within 2 weeks, here I was getting surgery. Ok I said..another punch, but I can handle it...scary, yes, but let's get this taken out and be done with...
And then boom. The gut punch. My CEO called me into our conference room and told me I was going to be laid off in 2 weeks. From the company I helped build for 3 1/2 years. The company that I was the first employee of. And they ended my employment just as I needed my insurance the most.
So here I am, job hunting, nursing these stitches in my stomach, just...miserable. And hopeless. And I dont know what I'm going to do. I havent gotten a single call back from the countless apps I've put out. So now..I just don't know what more to do.