I had no intention of doing a part 2 of my first written blog, and this is by no means a plea for sympathy I just needed to get it off my chest.

As per my previous blog good comes with bad and that has never been truer than the last few days for me.

it was my birthday this week, which has been great. I don't usually take my birthday off work or do anything to celebrate it, but this week was different. No work and celebrating with some good friends and family, paired with all of the birthday wishes from my friends all over including here.

I have been trying my best to be the best person I can be making it up to those in my life who I drove away, I thought it was going well only to be dealt a shattering blow with a message on my birthday from my ex saying she is starting to see someone else. I had been working hard to sort out the issues and move forwards and I have never felt like this! Utter heartbreak, and knowing I caused this is just the worst.

How quickly you can be torn down from a high.

The week wasn't done there! it picked back up again to find out I got a job that I wanted and now its just a case of sorting contracts only to be ripped apart again today by more messages from my ex. I don't know if she's trying to hurt me because of what I did to push her away in the last year but this is like torture, I feel like I can see my heart on the floor infront of me being stabbed repeatedly.

I want to head this blog off on a positive note, I have been on the SG community for just over a month and made friends with some awesome people and its such an open place anyone could find somewhere here to be at home.

Happy Valentines to all of you awesome people, love to you all.

I need a F@£%&*! Drink