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almost two weeks into the new year.

i'm always suprised by my naivety at the beginning of each year. this year will be better than last, this year i'll be everything. this year this year. yadda yadda. it always escapes my notice that i cannot physically do anything to make anything better, new year or not, what happens happens. very little is in my...
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what is the deal with shops in ipswich. seriously, i went into and there is literally nothing anywhere. is the credit crunch really hitting that hard? i know its after christmas and january sales and all, but memories previous always insist there was something to buy. the shelves of everywhere are literally bare, and its just bits and bobs.
i did however, buy a skirt,...
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note to self

dont screw it up this time, twat face.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

i just received conformation of getting a place at norwich. an unconditional offer.

i don't think it has sunk in. i do know that it seems shit that when i finally have everything i want, i have to leave it all. but hey, thats how life works these days does it not.

at least i get to start all over again



new year, new...
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so, christmas has come and gone. it wasn't a particually fantastic event, work was dull and i didn't want to go at all. plus i've been horriblely ill. i did have a nice time with my parents though. it rare i spend time with them, and even rarer that i appreciate it.

-sigh- everythings a bit all over the place. the one person i never...
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Being 21 is by far the best age i've been, although in my head, i am and always will be 18 forever. i can't wait for the future, the person i am, developing into the person i have always wanted to be, with everything i want and everything i have worked for.

i am mourning for who i was, all the things i had. all...
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all men are cocks. theres no nice ones ANYWHERE.

life is strange without vermin boy. i feel ill at the mention of his name. like i dont know if i want to shit or throw up. i'm hoping that will go away.

in other news.

i pretty much got into uni.

leaving in six weeks.

well, its been a while to say the least.
so much has happened, its been crazy.
vermin boy is finally gone from my life and i'm pretty sure i'm ok about it.
i'm 21 next week and i'm shitting myself about it.
twin and me are having a pole dancing party.
wooo hooooooooooo.

I am a pathalogical rescuer. I subconciously seek out needy tortured souls in the hope of saving them and them loving me in return.

I should be looking for someone to save me.
NOTE TO SELF:

Next time a guy tells you that he is a cunt.
a) DO NOT dismiss it becuase you dont want to beleive it.

i HATE being in my own...
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aarggh. i have been so busy. if only my life felt as exciting as it looks on paper. i've had absolutely not time to myself, i'm fucked.

i had my poledancing exam last thursday, which i passed. thank god for that. i really felt like i was getting nowhere.

i have a stupidly busy week this week too. its good though, i'm trying to keep...
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