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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

i just received conformation of getting a place at norwich. an unconditional offer.

i don't think it has sunk in. i do know that it seems shit that when i finally have everything i want, i have to leave it all. but hey, thats how life works these days does it not.

at least i get to start all over again



new year, new...
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so, christmas has come and gone. it wasn't a particually fantastic event, work was dull and i didn't want to go at all. plus i've been horriblely ill. i did have a nice time with my parents though. it rare i spend time with them, and even rarer that i appreciate it.

-sigh- everythings a bit all over the place. the one person i never...
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Being 21 is by far the best age i've been, although in my head, i am and always will be 18 forever. i can't wait for the future, the person i am, developing into the person i have always wanted to be, with everything i want and everything i have worked for.

i am mourning for who i was, all the things i had. all...
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all men are cocks. theres no nice ones ANYWHERE.

life is strange without vermin boy. i feel ill at the mention of his name. like i dont know if i want to shit or throw up. i'm hoping that will go away.

in other news.

i pretty much got into uni.

leaving in six weeks.

well, its been a while to say the least.
so much has happened, its been crazy.
vermin boy is finally gone from my life and i'm pretty sure i'm ok about it.
i'm 21 next week and i'm shitting myself about it.
twin and me are having a pole dancing party.
wooo hooooooooooo.

I am a pathalogical rescuer. I subconciously seek out needy tortured souls in the hope of saving them and them loving me in return.

I should be looking for someone to save me.
NOTE TO SELF:

Next time a guy tells you that he is a cunt.
a) DO NOT dismiss it becuase you dont want to beleive it.

i HATE being in my own...
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aarggh. i have been so busy. if only my life felt as exciting as it looks on paper. i've had absolutely not time to myself, i'm fucked.

i had my poledancing exam last thursday, which i passed. thank god for that. i really felt like i was getting nowhere.

i have a stupidly busy week this week too. its good though, i'm trying to keep...
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oh and the mirror is giving away david attenborough dvds everyday for two weeks

i hate the fact that i'm doing everything that i always thought would make me happy. yet now, i feel emptier than ever.

my head is a mess.

its just gonna take time i guess.

blagh.

wow.. time is going so fast. its the ninth day of september tomorrow. myself and sammies birthday is in less than three months, its looming.

i have new piercings. i finally got round to getting my nape pierced. i was so scared, it had been a good two years since my last needle piercing and the piercing guy asked me for ID, even tho you...
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So, this weekend has restored my faith in people. one in particular, but just in general. one of my oldest and closest friends cut his hair, just to be like me. cos having no hair is cool.

anyways, yes. what an amazing time with amazing people. its restored faith in myself too, something thats been missing for a while.

i can stop being a paranoid...
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i had a picnic on the beach yesterday. and then i went in the sea with the lovely sammie. it was very nice.

i left my shoes out in the rain and they got wet but walking home on wet warm tarmac was lovely.