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Sunday Apr 17, 2005

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btw-if you live in the city i'll be celebrating tonight with friends (and other friends and ladies birthdays) at the Red Hits Burlesque show @ Rififi's starting around 9:30!

in less than an hour i turn 26.

i am not sure how i feel about this.

it isnt nestolgia
it isnt regret
it isnt ____

maybe it is just a mark of time that bothers me like justin said.

but i dont think so.
i dont have this feeling of "oh look another year has passed and i have done nothing."

my past year of my life has been filled with fun, making new freinds, excitement, change, mostly good.

we moved from bushwick to williamsburg
ive lost 38 pounds
we bought a beautiful new couch and a new matress
i started dancing again- although in frequent it makes me happy
my art work has developed
in 2 weeks I will graduate with my MFA
ive met some really wonderful new people
i've sexually accepted myself
we've had rough times and amazing times and i am still in love

it just feels like some kind of dissapointment
like chistmas or easter

maybe i expect to feel like a child again. there's a photograph of me on my second birthday and my family filled the WHOLE living room with balloons and presents.

I think that i am looking for that- feeling of newness, suprise, excitment and after awhile- birthdays just feel like another day.






ampersandwich:
hey! you updated!!

happy birthday again!!!!!!!!!!

FLA- saw a vendor in deerfield beach, and saw properties in Melbourne - you?

I have biz meeting tonite, but maybe Ill try to drag them down smile Im not drinking yet tho, damned cold

oh, send me an email to my email, ill reply with the job description


every day is new, feeeel the newness!

Y~!


Apr 17, 2005

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