awake
i have had i think 3 asthma attacks in the last 24 hours. Last nights being the worst. I was considering waking justin up to take me to the hospital becasue i couldnt breath for about 45 minutes. and this afternoon i woke up from a nap the same way. I dont have an inhaler anymore since it has been about 4 years since I had an asthma attack. its really scarry- I used to only have them when around allergens that bothered me. but now, i dont know.. I might actually have to go to the doctor (shutter) to get an inhaler. I dont want to drive an hour tomorrow to go there, so I am thinking, I should probably just go to the clinic down the street if my doc wont rx one to the phamacy over the phone. They know I am asthmatic.
Thankfully, I have this weird inhaler I can use 12 hours apart that is a slow acting brchoncal widner or something. I cant use it for attacks but I can use it to perevnt them. Which is useful for about the forst 4 hours after I take it. but then the tightness starts all over again.
I think it is becasue i have been sick for a week- and when ever i get sick it always ends up in my lungs. But it is also extremely dry in our apartment. To the point where we both have really dry skin . yay winter!
So tomorrrow if we both feel better we are going to kmart in union square and we are getting a humidifer becasue the pot of h20 on the stove evaporates really quick. And I am tired of sitting in the bathroom with the shower on hot just so it doesnt hurt to breath.
I should have never had caffine today- I am never going to be able to sleep.
Last night I got tanked on 2 drinks. The second was mostly tequila and not a lot of flavor. I knew I should not have drank but i did anyway. And I also ran for a train- sprinted to be exact. DUMB ME sick, 2 and a half weeks after surgery, i run down one flight up 2 flighs of staris and down another- i think. All while very drunk. i dont know how i didnt fall. but i made it. mostly, i am paranoid about being alone in public drunk and such. I never used to be, but now i dont trust anyone. I think it is from being in my house and never leaving with out J for the last 3 weeks. I am also more aware of my weekness since my abs are still sore. and i dont think i could fend off an attacker. I was drunk. I get all weird when i am drunk
i forgot how much i love candy canes!
...
wide awake
still sick.
tomorrow is upon me.
i have had i think 3 asthma attacks in the last 24 hours. Last nights being the worst. I was considering waking justin up to take me to the hospital becasue i couldnt breath for about 45 minutes. and this afternoon i woke up from a nap the same way. I dont have an inhaler anymore since it has been about 4 years since I had an asthma attack. its really scarry- I used to only have them when around allergens that bothered me. but now, i dont know.. I might actually have to go to the doctor (shutter) to get an inhaler. I dont want to drive an hour tomorrow to go there, so I am thinking, I should probably just go to the clinic down the street if my doc wont rx one to the phamacy over the phone. They know I am asthmatic.
Thankfully, I have this weird inhaler I can use 12 hours apart that is a slow acting brchoncal widner or something. I cant use it for attacks but I can use it to perevnt them. Which is useful for about the forst 4 hours after I take it. but then the tightness starts all over again.
I think it is becasue i have been sick for a week- and when ever i get sick it always ends up in my lungs. But it is also extremely dry in our apartment. To the point where we both have really dry skin . yay winter!
So tomorrrow if we both feel better we are going to kmart in union square and we are getting a humidifer becasue the pot of h20 on the stove evaporates really quick. And I am tired of sitting in the bathroom with the shower on hot just so it doesnt hurt to breath.
I should have never had caffine today- I am never going to be able to sleep.
Last night I got tanked on 2 drinks. The second was mostly tequila and not a lot of flavor. I knew I should not have drank but i did anyway. And I also ran for a train- sprinted to be exact. DUMB ME sick, 2 and a half weeks after surgery, i run down one flight up 2 flighs of staris and down another- i think. All while very drunk. i dont know how i didnt fall. but i made it. mostly, i am paranoid about being alone in public drunk and such. I never used to be, but now i dont trust anyone. I think it is from being in my house and never leaving with out J for the last 3 weeks. I am also more aware of my weekness since my abs are still sore. and i dont think i could fend off an attacker. I was drunk. I get all weird when i am drunk
i forgot how much i love candy canes!
...
wide awake
still sick.
tomorrow is upon me.
