gardiac

well its been an eventful last week or so. my boss is no longer with the account, and i get the joy of taking command. dont get me wrong, i should want to 'move up' in the world, but now isnt the time or place. i have no desire to take this position really, but if i dont, they will bring in some fucktard from outside, and then ill end up quitting. i need money, thus quitting = bad. the only issues i have, are that im still a temp, and that i get no raise out of this (as of yet). what a crock of shit eh?

finally got to the masseuse, and let me tell you, it helped ALOT. she did all sorts of strange things, like pulling my scapula off my back, but in general i felt 10x better afterwards. apparently i was so tense that at first she couldnt even move most of the muscles around. i guess i dont deal with stress very well. i suppose there isnt too much i can do about that. its not like i dont relax when i get home, thats pretty much ALL i do.

i have a nice 5 day vacation around xmas, which is much needed. however, work is going to fall apart without me there. i can see it already...bleh. i really dont even want to go home, but its almost mandatory isnt it? go visit both sides of my family, and see all these people who honestly never had any involvement with me (step-family) and who know absolutely nothing about me (everyone). they expect me to bring presents for all these children my step-sisters keep having, whose names i really dont know. i hope i dont sound like a huge asshole or something saying these things, around the holidays and all. im absolutely not good with family, and ive never been close to them. i have friends whose parents i feel closer to than my own. at any rate, ill get to see some of my friends, and thats always a good thing. especially the lovely deb

off to WoW for the remainder of the eve. dont do anything i wouldnt do...