gardiac

im not quite sure how to describe this mood i find myself in lately. the past week has been uneventful, and boring as usual. the weather's been on the shitty side, cept turkey day where it was pleasant outside. oddly enough as we shoved the big dead bird in the oven, we saw some real living turkeys stroll across the lawn. if they had little chat bubbles over their heads it would have simply said 'wtf?'.

i had an odd dream that i cant really remember a few nights ago. i very rarely remember anything about dreams when i wake up, but i know this one involved some sort of stream, and stones that i used to cross it, and this this girl in the dream with me was afraid to cross so i grabber her hand and yanked her over into my arms and well...thats all i remember is that one second of dream. however, i do know who she was. back in PA, a few eons ago, i went to a circuit city to buy a cd-rom as i had just stabbed mine to death with a screwdriver. at this CC i saw this very lovely girl. i run into her constantly when im in that area, i saw her a few times at CC, then apparently she started working at best buy when they built that and i saw her there. i also saw her LOTS at the tattoo shop i worked at. she is very lovely, but all sorts of wrong. very stereotypical 'girl' i guess. she likes boys with money and fast cars and muscles, none of which describes me. but this girl, who i havent seen/thought of in at least 2-3 years, was the one in my dream. where do our minds find these fragments of time?

im sitting here listening to some nine inch nails, fifteen, nirvana, and a few others on random. i winamp. except i swear its random does NOT work right. ive looked through and seen certain songs its played dozens of times and others it hasnt ever played...hell theres one or two albums it hasnt played anything off of. wtf? nice random assholes.

my friend lori may be coming up next weekend to visit, which would be nice indeed. id have a warm body to sleep next to (not with, pervs) and someone to spend some time with instead of being a fucking hermit like always. i have to buy her ticket though cuz she is broke as a joke.

i purchased hellboy and dawn of the dead (new one) the other day and decided to watch dawn tonite. then i realized i needed to go do laundry, in this shit weather, at fucking midnite. awesome. i gather my shit, walk outside and promptly have a heartattack. apparently my neighbors downstairs forgot their dog outside or something...shes an all black dog...could 100% not see her INCHES from me, and she barks LOUD. i seriously almost shit myself. fucking shit. im not quite sure why she is outside though...only one of their vehicles is around..im not even sure they are home...and my other neighbor is ALSO not home. its kinda creepy actually. the family is this highly religious, always in by 9pm kinda family. where the fuck are they at 1am on a sunday? they got turned into zombies i bet. good thing zombies cant open doors, ever.

i was watching the tv at the laundry shithole, and there was some crap on about anna kournikova, and after that finished, right as i was leaving, boxing came on. well im not sure why boxing is on at midnite but whatever, so i look to see who it is, and its 2 people ive never heard of (go figure). just some random heavy weight fight, but the one guy, jason gerven (not sure exactly), is a police officer...back in PA...in my friend greg's jurisdiction...which happens to be my home town area. how utterly bizarre.

i think i have rambled on aimlessly for long enough. now i need to find a way to keep myself occupied for a few more hours...someone come chat with me on AIM.