ganzhimself

Live Everyday (Like youre already dead)

These scars are worthless reminders of the past
Memories etched out of tender flesh
If only I could replace these painful memories
And rid myself of this infectious disease
Because now I know a thing or two about dying
Its not so bad when youve lost everything
To feel the maggots crawl through
The empty cavity in my chest where blackness has taken over
Where my heart makes feeble attempts at beating once again

But that was then...

This is now

Ive been forced to become much less human
No longer am I able to sense this pain
Ever since I sat and watched all my dreams dying
Im now something more capable, more sane
Still I cannot see the future through my own eyes
Ive been blinded too long by a masquerade of lies
Haunted by your dark figure in that familiar disguise
Contaminating my mind with imperfections
Even after I politely thank you for the scars
You longed for more
How stupid of me to show a shred of weakness
The taste of my blood only whetted your appetite
It only fueled the flame to destroy what little I had left
I only wish to live every day like youre already dead
No longer crushing my chest
So I can breathe on my own again