*attempts where made to not make this another 'poor me' blog, but this as accurate as my current life is *
You know your 'grown up' when you have a job, car, your own place, maybe even some kids or a spouse. But when does that time really hit you mentally. We all associate accomplishment as proof that we can handle our own; but at what exact moment do YOU really understand that your ON YOUR OWN and CAN/WILL survive? I feel that although I'm not were I wanted to be by my age, I HAVE accomplished this understanding. Although everyone makes mistakes and we all *should* get back up and try again.
Yes, I live at home *still*; but I pay my own rent, insurance, phone and food. And Yes, I go to school at San Bernardino Valley JR College; but I'm paying my OWN way and I'm due to transfer *and am processing/wanting to do so* within my 'two year' goal. I feel I have accomplished all that I need to *not essentially HOW I wanted to* be considered MAKING IT all my own.
Then, Tim and I broke up for a bit and I realized I have NO ONE in the world. Don't get my wrong I have a bundle of good friends I could turn to and my family will be there for me always; but, I am on my own finacially, emotional, etc. I depend *and am dependent on* by no one other than myself, I am the only responsible person in the happenings of my life and no one else can singlehandedly affect my life without MY allowing them to.
It's a good sign when your own mother starts charging you rent that you are all alone. *and she should be at 19* 'all alone' isn't even the right term 'on your own' is better.
I'm on my own without dependence(s) on anyone other than myself. That is how I am living today; for myself, by myself. Simplifying has made it the easiest on me. After hearing it ALL my life, finally doing it has worked. It only took 10 or so years of trying and here I am; doing for me, no one else.
You know your 'grown up' when you have a job, car, your own place, maybe even some kids or a spouse. But when does that time really hit you mentally. We all associate accomplishment as proof that we can handle our own; but at what exact moment do YOU really understand that your ON YOUR OWN and CAN/WILL survive? I feel that although I'm not were I wanted to be by my age, I HAVE accomplished this understanding. Although everyone makes mistakes and we all *should* get back up and try again.
Yes, I live at home *still*; but I pay my own rent, insurance, phone and food. And Yes, I go to school at San Bernardino Valley JR College; but I'm paying my OWN way and I'm due to transfer *and am processing/wanting to do so* within my 'two year' goal. I feel I have accomplished all that I need to *not essentially HOW I wanted to* be considered MAKING IT all my own.
Then, Tim and I broke up for a bit and I realized I have NO ONE in the world. Don't get my wrong I have a bundle of good friends I could turn to and my family will be there for me always; but, I am on my own finacially, emotional, etc. I depend *and am dependent on* by no one other than myself, I am the only responsible person in the happenings of my life and no one else can singlehandedly affect my life without MY allowing them to.
It's a good sign when your own mother starts charging you rent that you are all alone. *and she should be at 19* 'all alone' isn't even the right term 'on your own' is better.
I'm on my own without dependence(s) on anyone other than myself. That is how I am living today; for myself, by myself. Simplifying has made it the easiest on me. After hearing it ALL my life, finally doing it has worked. It only took 10 or so years of trying and here I am; doing for me, no one else.
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i'm just learning how to do that myself. i let myself be controled by someone elses addiction and now i ended it and i will finally be living my life for myself with no dependents!
Remember: your life is yours to create.