ganonymousg

So... I saw my ex last night... yea we're still friends, he's just been out of town for a bit and was in for a day (yea only 24 hours) to visit before having to leave again. Just to get the details down, this boy is the love of my life, I am going to marry him one day, just not sure when. We've known each other for years and helped one another through a lot!! Plus he has a minor 'lust' complex for me on top of his love for me because i was his first. *everything involving sex* Anyhow, so we went out last night, had dinner and chated for a while and AS USUAL I'm still drooling over him and he still wants to get back together... *Le Sigh* so drama... the reason we broke up in the first place was because he's moving to San Luis Obispo to go to college in September and has a 5 year program going there. As for me on the other hand I'm here, im the ghetto inland empire trying to get my degree done to become a Pharmacist. Brownie points that San Luis Obispo is 5 hours away from the nearest Pharmacy School. *Pharmacy isn't something very many schools offer mind you* SO, my options are either to move with him or not. If i do go with him, I'll be looking at another two options; either change my major or put my schooling on hold... changing my major is a maybe anyhow since I've been hating the Pharmacy thing lately, not enough patient interaction a nurse would be more suitable. So yeah, thats my drama and I just told him I'm not even able to move with him finicially.... so I've decided to stick to my original plan and just stick it out for a year on my own, date other people and in a year I will move out there with him once I've finished this last year of schooling at my current college. Then I'd transfer to another college out there and just change my major to nursing (which i am probably going to do anyways) All this is assuming we still want to be together in a year... I think we both just need a bit of time to date other people to be 100% sure we're in it for the long haul, we're both so young to be married, but I really think *and always have* that he is the one... Well, thats my drama and honestly right now this is me... and my mind...

1) I'm trying to work on being happier *with life and myself*

2) I want to just be single *Except in bed*

3) I need a good fuck buddy to complete #2

4) I cannot wait for school to start up again

5) I am always looking for a new job...