The last experience that made me change was my breakup with my ex.
So after spending 5 years with a super nice boy (he was too hippie for me), I broke up and I met my ex, a boy that I really liked. It was a fusion relationship, an unconditional love, the kind we girls all want. It was perfect in every way, I was finally happy. But like every person in love, I have been blinded and I did not see it coming. Slowly my ex changed, and so I didn't noticed. My best friends all warned me but I couldn't see where was I wrong to want to be happy ?
Today I can say my ex is a narcissistic pervert, slowly he made me lost my grip on things and at the end I was destroyed by all the lies, the flight and the physical pain, but the worst was the psychic pain. I had no more confidence in myself and oh, how difficult it is to live with no confidence. It was so bad, I couldn't even dare to look at customers in the eyes, when i was at work, I lowered my head all the time. I was in depression, I gain 10 kilos, I didn't loved me anymore and I started to hurt myself because, I was no longer with him but he still lied to me so he could always have sex with me. He crashed me lower than dirt ...
In the eyes of the people I really was a horrible person because in the eyes of all, the perverse narcissist is a kind person because he can hide his real personality very well. I was lonely, I was physically hurting myself but fortunately at the end, every thing is known and people understood that my ex is a manipulator. I pity his new girlfriend but today I have rebuilt myself after 1 year of being single. Me, the romantic girl, I no longer believed in love. I was determined to be alone and if I ever go back to being in couple it will be when my pain will be buried.
Today I'm a couple, my heart has chosen a wonderful person. I learned from my mistakes, even if I'm in love I stay down to earth and I especially do not want a selfish love. With my new lover we will soon celebrate our 1 year anniversary in 3 months, and we had no fight at all since then! It's amazing! He even let me be a model,
doing pictures naked and being a Suicide Girl. I realized that I dont need much to be happy, I understood that it was necessary to stop asking questions and be satisfied of what we have, when we already have everything to be happy, why always wanting more?
This is my experiance @rambo & @missdy .
