Grandma is in the hospital.
She's in pain...
She doesn't eat... she doesn't stay awake for longer than a minute at a time.
I don't think I'll ever hear her voice again, and I probably won't get a chance to tell her that I'm sorry for being a bratty kid (and, sometimes, a bratty adult). I visited her on Sunday... there wasn't much conversation. I held her hand a gave her a kiss before I left.
I kinda feel blank inside. I'm on the verge of tears and absolutely indifferent all at the same time. I really don't understand how that can happen. What the fuck happened to me? How can I be so cold?
I really don't know what's going on anymore... with me or anything else.
Somebody, save me...
She's in pain...
She doesn't eat... she doesn't stay awake for longer than a minute at a time.
I don't think I'll ever hear her voice again, and I probably won't get a chance to tell her that I'm sorry for being a bratty kid (and, sometimes, a bratty adult). I visited her on Sunday... there wasn't much conversation. I held her hand a gave her a kiss before I left.
I kinda feel blank inside. I'm on the verge of tears and absolutely indifferent all at the same time. I really don't understand how that can happen. What the fuck happened to me? How can I be so cold?
I really don't know what's going on anymore... with me or anything else.
Somebody, save me...
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lolablu:
I'm so sorry to hear about your grandma. I'm sure in her eyes there's nothing you need to apologize for. And I don't think your cold. I think all the feelings you're having are totally normal.
sjofn_:
oh no I'm so sorry, it's a normal feeling, and she knows that your sorry hon