galaxy42

I went to bed early last night (10:30pm is early compared to the life I've led the past 2 months since moving here) with the help of a few pharmaceutical friends. And now I'm up at a "normal person" time. I'm going to the gym. I've been a Bally Total Fitness member since 2000 (operating under the Chandler Bing plan of being able to count...
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With the weekend trip to Seattle coming it, I can't help but be reminded of a chunk of my past I'd rather forget. Who knows what will happen once I get there. Who knows...

I'm swimming in a sea of regret at the moment. Maybe this ill feeling I've had for days is a subconscious manifestation of stress as I come closer and closer--in time...
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Woke up feeling like shit for the 5th consecutive day... I feel like someone has been kicking me in the gut while I sleep.

Job hunt is coming up snake eyes... depression sets in.

I need a good laugh:

I've got a lot to say today... just don't feel like saying it.

The Roomie, his girlfriend, and I are going to Seattle next weekend for Bumbershoot. I'm going on record right now with my prediction for the trip. At some point--I'm not sure when--I fully expect the scene around us will turn into something remarkably similar to this:

I went home for the weekend and it didn't feel like home to me. It never really did anyhow. It's just where the people I love can be found.

The part that bothered me upon my return to Portland is that it doesn't feel like home to me either.

I don't know where I'm going to have to go to find the perfect feeling.

Occasionally,...
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It is time to dose myself out for a bit. I need to reclaim some sort of normal person schedule to my day. I have already stayed away way later than planned as it is.

Dear Xanax, my sweet friend, take me with you into the land of dreams... I wash you down with the finest rum a poor, ground down bird can buy.

dook,...
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...stress, my friends, is not something you want to taunt or tease. For, it will bite with all the fury of hell if you let it build. I am a man without a plan. I've ventured off into the unknown without a map or breadcrumbs to leave to find my way home. I have become one of the doomed. Yes, yes, it's quite true... quite...
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Boy meets girl.
Boy kinda likes girl.
Boy and girl date for a short time, then move in together.
Before boy knows it, he and girl are buying a house together with plans to marry within a year's time.
Boy freaks out and leaves girl.
Years later, boy starts to miss girl.
Boy missed his chance...girl is getting married to another.
Boy is strangely aware...
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Drokk it...