galaxy42

Ahh, my new baby...

It won't seem like anything too special to most, but it will more than serve it's purpose with me.
I'm not a gamer... I don't have plans to do any (let alone extensive) video or audio work on it... it is my relatively basic, bare-bones new bestest friend in the world. A friend that will free me of the shackles of...
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Broke down and bought a laptop yesterday...
I should have saved the money, but noooooooooooooooooooo...

Now I'm mobile, at least. No more cave dwelling when I feel inspired to write. I guess that's a good thing. A boost to morale. Usually, the fact that I'm cooped up in my room is what discourages me from doing much of any creative thinking/writing/dreaming. I guess it'll be...
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I have a hole in my face again...
Not sure how I feel about it.

It has been a little over a year since I removed the barbell from my eyebrow in a state of self-loathing. It was a symbol of regret for me at the time. Every time I looked in the mirror and saw it, I could think only of the mistake I...
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...maybe not.

There's a little piece of me that has been missing for a little over a year now...

I do believe today will be the day that I go and get it back.

this won't hurt.

It's time for a break.
These past two weeks have been nothing but a roller coaster of drama, tension,and confusion. Lots and lots of confusion. All this has lead to some serious feelings of dread, and I can't handle it anymore. I need to purge it from my brain for one moment. Just one. Just some peace... that's all I need.

So... rather than dwell...
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It's a beautiful day in Portland... few clouds, no rain, seems as though the sun is going to hang out for a bit...

I think I'll leave my cave and go exploring.

It wasn't me, it was her. I know that.
Baggage. Lots and lots of baggage...
It's beyond my control.

All I can hope to do is be her friend... the way I was for months before all this began to bubble to the surface.

She told a mutual friend of ours once that, in the short time I've been here, I've been a better friend...
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I blew it
goodnight

Please... I'm beggin'... someone save me from myself...

Mr. Self Destruct... that's what I am.

Week long radio silence begins.............................................now.

Happy Holidays, people.

Goddamnit...

It's against my deepest core beliefs to do so, but I may have to start admitting that I'm actually pretty good at something. I'm not comfortable with it. No, sir... not comfortable at all.

My musician friends in this town are either blowing smoke up my ass, or they mean it when they tell me that I'm a damn good bassist. Since I have...
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