gabster

Sorry I need to get onto suicide girls more often but its hard to find time lately. And then when I do get on I dont have any thing to say. Goddamn Im good at making dreams that will never happen. I could sit out back and count stars that I have made dreams on. Im such a moron; nothing I want will ever happen I will always let others tell me what to do. Goddamn it why cant I just learn to help my self. The sky is orange, which is nice. I need to get out of this town sooooo bad. I cant wait till jarred gets back and then we can move. Im not doing so well here. Then I can be close to my sweet, sweet lizme. Its funny Jarred doesnt like liz and liz dose not like jarred, but I love both of them. Jarred doesnt like Liz because hes afraid she is going to steel me a way from him. No matter what you say that is the truth jarred so dont start with that. Liz doesnt like jarred because she thinks he is too controlling. Which he is at times I wont lie. If he wasnt I wouldnt be so afraid to leave the comments I want without worrying about him reading about it. Because he doesnt trust me enough to let me just vent to some people that I will never meet but they are the most amazing people I have gotten to know. Jarred I know you are going to get pissed about this whole thing Im writing but I dont care anymore. OH BY THE WAY I was accepted to be a suicide girl but have never submitted a set because jarred wont let me. So for the rest of my life Im going to hate him for that, and I will live in regret. Why am I doing what I always said I was not going to do? Im letting a guy run my life oh god I just set off a war between us. But this feels really good just typing down. Ok Im done.