well this is kind of a blog of two halves, I haven't been liking how things have been going recently, I've been working more and more, and doing less and less and less for myself.
I bumped into a guy in a bar, he was sweet and cute, he walked me home and kissed me, and now he won't reply to my messages. It has just brought the last six months to a head for me, and last night wasn't pretty shall we say.
On the better side, even though I still feel pretty rotten, I'm happier for it, a real close friend reminded me why I miss him so much by being 100% there for me today, even while I'm at work, and I am eternally grateful to him for that. And I have decided, even though I struggle with not knowing so many people, getting out alot and being in bars is a bad idea. It is difficult, because I want to meet new people, but right now I can't afford the gym, and I need to look after myself. So I'm really pleased at the prospect of doing some new shoots with people, I want to catch up on some amazing books I've not opened yet, and get some more work done on my drawings. Sadly these are naturally very unsociable things, but its better than putting myself repeatedly into scenarios where I compromise my own happiness and feel vulnerable.
Thankyou again to anyone why has shown love for my two sets, you guys make me feel happy
I hope as many as you as possible are not working like me on this Sunday, I'd much rather be spending the rest of my day making cakes and curling up with a movie, but no rest for the wicked
Much loves SG land
I bumped into a guy in a bar, he was sweet and cute, he walked me home and kissed me, and now he won't reply to my messages. It has just brought the last six months to a head for me, and last night wasn't pretty shall we say.
On the better side, even though I still feel pretty rotten, I'm happier for it, a real close friend reminded me why I miss him so much by being 100% there for me today, even while I'm at work, and I am eternally grateful to him for that. And I have decided, even though I struggle with not knowing so many people, getting out alot and being in bars is a bad idea. It is difficult, because I want to meet new people, but right now I can't afford the gym, and I need to look after myself. So I'm really pleased at the prospect of doing some new shoots with people, I want to catch up on some amazing books I've not opened yet, and get some more work done on my drawings. Sadly these are naturally very unsociable things, but its better than putting myself repeatedly into scenarios where I compromise my own happiness and feel vulnerable.
Thankyou again to anyone why has shown love for my two sets, you guys make me feel happy
I hope as many as you as possible are not working like me on this Sunday, I'd much rather be spending the rest of my day making cakes and curling up with a movie, but no rest for the wicked
Much loves SG land
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Focus on postive stuff lovely. x
If you ever happen to come to oxford i shall walk you to your hotel and kiss you goodnight and you shall have many messages from me