funkyskunk

Jesus fucking christ, i feel sick... i get hungry so i eat brisket at work.. go home still hungry eat raisinets.. still hungry eat salt and vinegar chips.. till hungry eat a crunchy granola bar with peanut butter.. it all hits at once and i want to vomit.. why does my stomach take so long to not be full? by the time it works i have alrady eaten a bunch of really weird things and want to vomiiittttt. maybe i'll vomit in someones face, i wish i could find more people with a fetish like that. back to my original statement though, jesus fucking christ. im so tired, i have tons of homework and a bad math test threatens my 4.0 GPA.. getting good grades sucks because you have to keep getting them and you freak out if you get something that doesnt match with your standards. i can imagine the look of disdain of a guidance counselor when she sees my soon to be 3.9.. that look of pity and disgust. oh at least you tried they'll say as they ship me to aushwitz... then i will burn burn burn... im being melodramatic i know, by my stomach hurts and im tired as i said. this seems like its going to be a long entry... wooo... i read the german student by washington irving, its weird because i see it as one of the best romantic short stories ive ever read. its not supposed to be =( the other one that i find beautiful that shouldn't be is Nona by stephen king. oh how it chokes me up. anything where people give their lives or souls for love makes me feel that way. whatever, im a pussy for death and love haha.. i sound like im trying to be all cool but its seriously a fascination ive always had since i was little. to me love isnt truly love unless theres death for that love. the final sacrifice. and the pain that follows from the loss due to the love is the bitter sweet pain that one has to savor. catch my drift? probably not, im off now before i say other stupid shit.