I am pretty frustrated with everything in general. I am trying to amend my lack of beliefs with all points of my life and find it not working.
School: I am pretty fucking tired of theory and philosophy. There are no answers, I know this because i spend 10 hours a week talking to people with Doctoral degrees about this particular fact. All we can hope for is self awareness. The only problem with this is in order for us to progress as a society, we all need to achieve this same self awareness. Can't imagine spending my career writing about this shit, brings me to point 2.
People: Places full of 'alternative interest' people are full of people just as ignorant as normal society, except they are fanatical about different things (mainly being alternative). The smartest people i find are the ones who have also realized the only way to peace is disassociation with any sort of belief or system (harken back to the no answers problem).
Kung Fu: The one thing in my life that keeps me happy in the feeling of being productive although acrobatics make me want to die. I swear I am going to kill myself one day, but at least I will have died trying to do something important (read back to self awareness, which kung fu is a carnal form of)
Art: I have been in an art rut for a few years as since I have found peace in disassociation, I also find that I have no artistic motivation since art usually derives from belief. There is much frustration from this void of creation, at the same time i don't know if i would change it if i could.
I want to be a revolutionary so that i can see what its like to care about something enough to die for it.
School: I am pretty fucking tired of theory and philosophy. There are no answers, I know this because i spend 10 hours a week talking to people with Doctoral degrees about this particular fact. All we can hope for is self awareness. The only problem with this is in order for us to progress as a society, we all need to achieve this same self awareness. Can't imagine spending my career writing about this shit, brings me to point 2.
People: Places full of 'alternative interest' people are full of people just as ignorant as normal society, except they are fanatical about different things (mainly being alternative). The smartest people i find are the ones who have also realized the only way to peace is disassociation with any sort of belief or system (harken back to the no answers problem).
Kung Fu: The one thing in my life that keeps me happy in the feeling of being productive although acrobatics make me want to die. I swear I am going to kill myself one day, but at least I will have died trying to do something important (read back to self awareness, which kung fu is a carnal form of)
Art: I have been in an art rut for a few years as since I have found peace in disassociation, I also find that I have no artistic motivation since art usually derives from belief. There is much frustration from this void of creation, at the same time i don't know if i would change it if i could.
I want to be a revolutionary so that i can see what its like to care about something enough to die for it.