fueltanker

Isnt life grand, I just dont understand shit anymore. I dont understand why I need someone in my life, I just dont get it. Why do I long for someone to have around. I just had the same girl friend for almost 7 years and I move away cause of my new job and it all went to shit. i went home for christmas and she told me she didnt love me anymore. It was the first time ive ever wanted to hit a girl, but I didnt, I will never hit a girl. Noone should ever hit a girl for any reason. I was crushed and i figured i would just take a break from girls but know i want one. Its not even a I just wanna get layed thing, this may sound funny but sex has never really been a huge priority for me. Dont get me wrong I enjoy it alot, but I dont need it 24 hours like most guys. Im one of those guys that think a girl should never have to pay for a meal when shes with a guy, I guess Im one of the old fashioned type. It seems girls dont like that stuff anymore, a guy doing stuff for her. I dont know. I see girls that Id like to talk to but i was with the same girl for a very very long time and Ive never had to talk to a girl for the purpose of trying to hookup so to speak. So I dont really know what to do or what to say. I guess Im just talking out my ass. Oh well....