fuckingwhore

Life is..... Ambagious...

I've found myself in an odd relationship with the man I've been spending nearly all of my waking life with. The troubled path, we walked upon for 6 months never seems to end. We're not together anymore, yet we're probably more together now than we've been in quite some time. He's not my boyfriend, but he's definately my guy...

I worry sometimes. I worry that I'm making the wrong decisions. I love him. A part of loving someone so much is knowning what's best for them. I'm starting to doubt myself as far as knowing what I want. There's so much I miss about being by myself. Not having anything holding me down, or any kind of restraint or worry. I'm no longer able to take time to myself.

... Somethings are a little more complex... I'm worried about my sexuality. As days go by, I become more and more attracted to women. I feel I'm floating away from my partner, sexually. If him and I were really to be over, I'm having a hard time imagining myself hooking up with another guy.....

I feel like I'm 13...