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So yea, today sucks. I'm sick again as usual and lonely as ever. I swear I need to find a girlfriend or something... Seems to be a dying hope, but I still think that someday it may happen again. Just have to meet the right person...right? She must be hiding from me somewhere...although i truly don't blame her. I seriously think CO girls hate me for some reason, actually I know they all hate me and it's because I'm a short guy. They all treat me like crap, and the ones that are nice to me either do so because they realize how nice and loyal I am and want to be my 'friends' because of it...or think they can use me for something, which usually turns out to be true.

My brother and his buddies have opened up a state of the art Performance shop in Portland right near the Portland Airport called Torquefreaks ( check it out if anyone cares www.torquefreaks.com ). It is going to be a really big thing for him and his friends, I am so happy for him he deserves the best of everything. I really want to move up there and live with him. I think it'd be better for both of us, me especially and maybe I could meet some really nice people as well. I visited last summer and have to say I love the atmosphere up there..not just the people and the scenery, but for whatever reason I just feel happier up there.
I think Colorado is slowly killing me inside and I fear I am powerless to stop it from happening.

Oh well, throw caution to the wind and hope for the best I guess? What else can I do...?